am I going mad?

[Schrammatt2]

Yes I felt that at first but got adapted to it, wasn't easy.. but don't get me wrong, I still like to have a companion.

But how do you adapt to it when the filling never go's away? it's still there eating you away but we jus numb it out.

Loneliness does terrible things to a man, Schrammatt. I'm exactly where you are now.

hehe yha it's not fun...

Yes, terrible things indeed.

But is Schrammatt lonely? Are you Schrammatt?

Yes I am but there are other things also.

Add in Midget Clown Hookers and various substance and you got my life. lol Do not feel bad Schrammatt2, You are not the only one in this scenario. I have learned to roll with it as the days merge into one big blur of nothingness.

lol What? haha it comforting knowing i'm not the only one, but still...

see a dentist

haha sorry about that, got to love dyslexia.

Don't be so hard on yourself. It should be apparent that you are not alone... View attachment 191

yha I have to remember that, but it is madding.

You can be so thoughtless, smart ass.

Schrammatt is dyslexic.

haha it's ok he dint know, or she.

 

[iwant2believe2]

yha I have to remember that, but it is madding.

Showing a little humor in the midst of another's suffering is not always a callous dismissal of their pain...sometimes its a sincere acknowledgement of it with a small attempt to ease their hurt with a bit of laughter. Find reasons to smile and the madness won't seem so terrible after all.

 

[3FEL9]

I'm mad too. Or at least far from normal. I'm proud of that, lol

Mad is the new well.

 

[Ras]

But how do you adapt to it when the filling never go's away? it's still there eating you away but we jus numb it out.

At first was hard, I was new to the place, I didn't eat well, i was pressured at work, i had 2 horrible boss who sees me as a $$$ and not human. Back home, i lived a lonely and quiet life. I felt like going crazy..

I found peace by talking to random people I meet everyday after/before work.. I travel around the city discovering stuff or sometimes I would just do some jogging/walking in the park during the night because my work will finish at about 7pm to 8pm, I don't stay at home much.. Got some hobbies like cooking and jogging.. During the weekends I'll take a train and go back to my hometown.

The people there was the one who helped me alot, they helped and thought me many things about the city and etc.. I don't know but some how I just got used to it and i actually liked it there but not my work..

 

[Ras]

The people there was the one who helped me alot, they helped and taught me many things about the city and etc.. I don't know but some how I just got used to it and i actually liked it there but not my work..

Lol, sorry for the grammar error

 

[Tate]

I think humans were created in a state of duality Complete yet not complete. We all have something missing and we all seek to fill that hole where our missing piece goes. Some use Drugs, Some use Sex, Some use People, Some use Gambling, etc. This makes us the perfect consumers. Think about it as a species we consume everything. Biologically speaking we as a species are omnivores which is a hint at our metaphysical need to consume. Even in our relationships with other people, one tends to consume the other over time. If you find me a couple that has two alpha's in it I will bet on it being over within a maximum of three years. Anyways, Find a Hobbie or a Vice to help pass the time. It really does help. Hobbies are Awesome and Reality Sucks. Basically the drift of this rant. Just something to fill that missing piece. If not you will wind up sucked into that hole full of darkness and despair that we all bare my friend. Trust me I have been there many times. You could even say I have a Vacation home there at this point. But yeah I hope you find your flavor of vice. And I hope it's healthy for you cause god knows mine isn't.

 

[michael59]

@Schrammitt

I think what Diva is trying to say is that sometimes we can get stuck/trapped in a moment in time. If you allow yourself to dwell to long, or think too much about that one thing, it can become overwhelming and drag you down.

Sometimes, I literally have to shake my head and tell myself, not now, not today.

 

[Ras]

Oh I was going off topic, sorry.

Yes, that is what I was trying to say. Thanks Michael.

 

[michael59]

Oh I was going off topic, sorry.

Yes, that is what I was trying to say. Thanks Michael.

I apologize, Diva. What I wanted to say was, I think what Diva is trying to say is valid. Somehow the word valid didn't make it into my posting. I made the error, you were not off topic.

 

[Ras]

Some use Drugs, Some use Sex, Some use People, Some use Gambling, etc. This makes us the perfect consumers. Think about it as a species we consume everything. Biologically speaking we as a species are omnivores which is a hint at our metaphysical need to consume. Even in our relationships with other people, one tends to consume the other over time.

I'm a little confused by this, we humans have desires but of course that desires can be controlled right? And how a person in a relationship could consume another?

maybe I haven't cross that path to understand it yet.

 

[Tate]

The only relationships I have seen last are ones with a clear Dominate and Submissive Dynamic. Is the easiest way to explain it. Desires are an inch away from being Vices my Dear. Self-control is the only thing that keeps them separated.