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Discussion in 'Social Hub' started by Shadowprophet, Sep 20, 2017.

  1. Shadowprophet

    Shadowprophet Truthiness

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    I'm combative. I fight with people lately. It's not the way I mean to be. I'm just an angry person right now. No real reason why.

    It sucks and I'm sorry if I'm offending people.
    I'm just gonna work through it and try to be nice to people.

    It's one of those weeks I guess.
     
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  2. August

    August Metanoia

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    Not offending me Shadow. I had a break for 9 months and I don't seem so abrasive now. Sorted out some issues I didn't bother taking a stress pill and laying down just watched a few sunrises on a beach on my own and it sorta sunk in . Don't you go leaving us .
     
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  3. Sheltie

    Sheltie good to the last drop

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    I had a to go to the dentist today and have a tooth extracted. It was fractured in 2 places. After they removed it, they put bone matter in the socket that was taken from a human corpse so an implant can be put in. It really wasn't as bad as it sounds and it only took about 90 minutes.

    I have dental anxiety. My roommate has a bottle of lorazepam for anxiety so I took 2 of them right before the surgery. They were a lot stronger than I expected. Now I'm trying to play the sympathy card with her. :sad8: She told me she's going to make some soup and rice for dinner tomorrow.
     
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  4. August

    August Metanoia

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    Human corpse material ? That's pretty cool recycling people like that.
     
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  5. Visenya

    Visenya Honorable

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    Is this because of our little spat in that thread? There's really nothing to apologize for. If we all thought the same the world wouldn't be an interesting place.
     
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  6. Kchoo

    Kchoo At Peace.

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    Shadow, you crack me up... I dont think people here would know how you are feeling by your regular old everyday posts...

    But we don't need to, you will tell us...

    I think I have seen a half dozen times when you created a thread to explain this kind of thing... on AH, and now here...

    Don't take this the wrong way, because I am just a guy, making an observation... I just don't know how else to say it, but it t's actually kind of cute.
     
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  7. Caeldeth

    Caeldeth Noble

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    Won't catch any greaif from me. In terms off assholes I'm pretty high on the totom poll.
     
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  8. Shadowprophet

    Shadowprophet Truthiness

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    Thanks, guys. I have my moments, I don't mean to have them. I think I'm getting bad nerves as I get older.
     
  9. Sheltie

    Sheltie good to the last drop

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    Today I looked like a lopsided chipmunk. Humiliating!
     
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  10. cobalt

    cobalt Adept

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    I can't stand those days when I'm ultra self-conscious about my looks. I look in the mirror and I'm like... I look kinda fat today... it helps to think: love my body because it doesn't deserve being picked on by me like that. It is innocent. Finally the self-esteem kicks back in after an energy drink and a few cigarettes
     
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  11. cobalt

    cobalt Adept

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    You've got personality man, my best bet is people like you even when you're angry... I get vibes I can tell when someone is a like able person
     
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  12. Shadowprophet

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    Yeah. It's been a lot like that my whole life. People seem to genuinely like me, But that is an equal and opposite reaction to everything in existence. people always expect better of me no matter really what I do. I can never eternally live up to expectation. in exchange for being so likable, I have to suffer the guilt trips of every person I've upset for not genuinely being able to fulfill their expectations.
    It's lead to a very nervous kind of walking on eggshells personality. I need to relax. But my mind is racing more than it ever has. There is so much I could be doing.
     
  13. cobalt

    cobalt Adept

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    Just remember, we go through hard times. I went through literal hell recently, and it changed me. Nothing seems like a big deal anymore cause I survived it. So, my point is, we can't help becoming stronger after the lows. The stronger we are, the more likely we are to not have insecurity. Just think about how you'll feel once things get better. Perhaps they already have and you just need to notice ;) I thought I was dying because the pain I felt was as bad as cancer pain and all they gave me was Tylenol. When the pain went away... well, nothing upsets me anymore. I'm a changed man.
     
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  14. Shadowprophet

    Shadowprophet Truthiness

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    I've been destroyed a hand full of times, bro, I have learned it hurts. But you pick up the pieces and start putting things back together as best as you can and eventually the feeling does come back bro.
     
  15. cobalt

    cobalt Adept

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    Yes. This time I recovered quickly, the only thing that I haven't healed from yet is my dreams... I can't get a good nights sleep. My defenses are down so fear racks my brain as long as I'm asleep and I am in the throes of terrible nightmares.
     
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  16. Shadowprophet

    Shadowprophet Truthiness

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    The dreams can continue for Years, bro. But I promise the more time that passes. Those will get better slowly too.
     
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  17. cobalt

    cobalt Adept

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    Yeah I've already had them for 3 years. I die in them often. But last time I died, I saved a school. It started out I was an alien in the school parking garage. I smoked a cigarette and told the school it was in danger. I went to the security office and the alarms went off and then I had to do a lot of action getting people out the doors etc. it was so realistic, it took me a week to recover.
     
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  18. Sheltie

    Sheltie good to the last drop

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    In my case I've been holding a bag of frozen peas against the side of my face. :unsure8:
     
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  19. cobalt

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    Nice! In my case I put mascara on
     

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