New MRI Tomorrow morning.

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
So, after still dealing with a lot of issues over being to specialists over my stomach problems. I am going tomorrow morning for another MRI. MY current specialist Believes I have a hernia that has somehow become infected.

I didn't even know you could get infections like that, I'm not bitching it's just, Damn, What can't normal things ever happen to me. You know like a chest cold or pneumonia. No, I get weird infected hernias.

I've made up my mind. I'm scared to have the MRI done If they find any artery blockage, I choose to die.
I know that sounds weird. But A combination of fear and personality play into it. I don't want to be cut open.
Never. Little surgeries are fine, But they can't touch my heart or brain. Just no...


:/
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
It's a step forward in taking care of the problem.
x11
I watched this yesterday and it might get your mind off tomorrow.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=W0Bs56G9KAQ

Thank you brother, Sorry I didn't reply Last night, By the time I saw the message, I was exhausted. I and my wife have been playing a lot of Minecraft in her downtime, It's come to a point now, That she approaches me and demands I play Minecraft. It's not that I don't like the Game, It's that I don't spend enough time with her and she's getting pretty damned needy. It's one thing to spend time with people, But since I've been sick she's wanted to spend all kinds of time with me to the point that it's pissing me off.

The reason is, Her idea of spending time with me is never ever doing what I want to do. No, It's what she want's to do.

Always.. People wonder why I am such a loner, People never want to spend time "With me" They always want me to do what they want. It gets old. When She wants to talk about The Higgs field, Or Dark Energy or the New discovery that DNA can interact on a quantum level with other genes in the body, Well That would be something I would want. . Which means, I end up building Glass Domes In Minecraft for three hours. I'm thinking of secretly breaking the ps4.

:/


I'm just in a shitty mood this morning I guess, I don't look forward to this appointment.


Thank you, brother,:) I will let you guys know what happens at the appointment.
 
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Shadowprophet

Truthiness
I see a surgeon Monday morning. I didn't have to go today, So that's good, I wasn't looking forward to it.
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
He called me into an appointment He said it was an emergency, I'm reading up on a perforated colon right now.

Not pleasant stuff it seems. Weirdly enough, I think I'm gonna go play Minecraft.
 

Toroid

Founding Member
Were they more specific because that could be the stomach, small or large intestine. Does it require them installing something like a stint or just sewing it up?
 
He called me into an appointment He said it was an emergency, I'm reading up on a perforated colon right now.

Not pleasant stuff it seems.
Yeah that can definitely kill you if it goes untreated. Find out what caused it so you can prevent it from happening again. Things have causes - find out what it is. My guess is the soda. But see what they say - you need to know.

And it sucks that you have to deal with this, so try to focus on the outcome: you'll finally have all of this misery and pain behind you, and you can move forward and enjoy your life again, without the uncertainty and discomfort you've endured for months. You'll be a new you. Chances are that with all of this going on for so long, you've forgotten what the best of you is like. Now you'll be able to remember, and enjoy it.

In the meantime let them give you drugs and sleep and eat as much as you can to just muscle through it. It'll be behind you before you know it. I'm guessing that within a few weeks, maybe a month, you'll be feeling 20 years younger. Til then just zone out and try to sleep your way through it - fortunately, that's also the fastest way to heal.
 

Rikki

High Priestess
HEALING THOUGHTS SENT IN FLIGHT
BRING BRIGHT BLESSINGS
THIS NIGHT
SENDING HEALING WHITE LIGHT
FROM ABOVE
MAY THE GODESS
SUROUND YOU IN PURE LOVE
BLESSED BE
RIKKI
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
Yeah that can definitely kill you if it goes untreated. Find out what caused it so you can prevent it from happening again. Things have causes - find out what it is. My guess is the soda. But see what they say - you need to know.

And it sucks that you have to deal with this, so try to focus on the outcome: you'll finally have all of this misery and pain behind you, and you can move forward and enjoy your life again, without the uncertainty and discomfort you've endured for months. You'll be a new you. Chances are that with all of this going on for so long, you've forgotten what the best of you is like. Now you'll be able to remember, and enjoy it.

In the meantime let them give you drugs and sleep and eat as much as you can to just muscle through it. It'll be behind you before you know it. I'm guessing that within a few weeks, maybe a month, you'll be feeling 20 years younger. Til then just zone out and try to sleep your way through it - fortunately, that's also the fastest way to heal.

Thanks, bro, I didn't even know things like this could happen, But yeah, I've lived my life like I was really young and had forever, I'm going to have to change some habits, Of all the things I like to study, I'm no doctor, I had no idea something like this could even happen. they have me on two antibiotics and they gave me some kind of shot it was, I can't remember the name it was a strong antibiotic that sounded like,, Ross something. I keep telling myself, I know it's serious, But I can't be any sicker than I have been for the last four months. I mean. I'm just now realizing what it is, But, I'm not panicking, Surely they wouldn't have sent me home to wait till Monday if it was terribly serious, But I won't lie, I had been feeling very low energy for a really long time, I thought I was just getting old and out of shape. It turns out I was fighting a constant severe infection, The world is a strange place.

HEALING THOUGHTS SENT IN FLIGHT
BRING BRIGHT BLESSINGS
THIS NIGHT
SENDING HEALING WHITE LIGHT
FROM ABOVE
MAY THE GODESS
SUROUND YOU IN PURE LOVE
BLESSED BE
RIKKI
Thank you, On the Spiritual side of things, I can't explain this, But, The soul knows what it knows. Somehow, At that moment I heard what was wrong, There was just a feeling of clear calm, It's like something has my spirit. It's not like words, It's like a spirit just there with me. I can't speak to it but I can feel it. And It feels like I'm going to be Okay, I can trust this feeling, I've had it before, It's never wrong. :)
 

Sheltie

Fratty and out of touch.
Sorry to hear about your health issue, Shadow, but at least it sounds like you may finally have resolution. I'm sure everything will go fine. Good luck! Our positive thoughts will be with you. :like:
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
Sorry to hear about your health issue, Shadow, but at least it sounds like you may finally have resolution. I'm sure everything will go fine. Good luck! Our positive thoughts will be with you. :like:
Thank you, I've been reading up on it, It seems it can be serious, But, The problem comes from the perforation causing sepsis. Which I'm sure hasn't happened at this point. So I got Lucky.

I keep kicking myself because I shouldn't have waited months and months to get that resolution, I still got lucky and got this in time, But. I waited until I had no choice but to seek help. I shouldn't have waited so long, I'm lucky honestly. Thank you so much, These last four months have been endless pain.

Trying to tough things out is dangerous. I thought it was something I could heal from on my own, The bad habit I need to change most of all is seeking the proper help when it's needed. I got to thinking today, How many people have waited too long and not gotten help when they could have and then it was too late.

As much as I want to complain about it. This is literally my fault. IT may not have even gotten this bad if I had just gone to the doctors months ago,
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
Were they more specific because that could be the stomach, small or large intestine. Does it require them installing something like a stint or just sewing it up?
Somehow I missed this one brother. I'm sorry, Yes the doctor was very specific, He told me That my Colon was perforated I asked where, of course it is in my upper left abdomen where I had been having all the pain, He told me that he won't be back in his office till Monday and I need to see him and then Go see Doctor Corban who is going to give me a Gi "Thing" Where they put me to sleep and run a camera in there to see how bad it is "I'm probably looking at surgery, But first they have to do something about the infection, They can't operate while it's like that. So, For now, I'm home Taking three different antibiotics, Levaquin, Bactrim and Flagyl but if it really starts bothering me, I'm supposed to go straight to the emergency room.

There are lots of things going through my mind. Did you know, The anesthesia they put people to sleep with reportedly lowers a persons I.Q? I've heard as much, I don't know if it's true or not.
 
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Toroid

Founding Member
Somehow I missed this one brother. I'm sorry, Yes the doctor was very specific, He told me That my Colon was perforated I asked where, of course it is in my upper left abdomen where I had been having all the pain, He told me that he won't be back in his office till Monday and I need to see him and then Go see Doctor Corban who is going to give me a Gi "Thing" Where they put me to sleep and run a camera in there to see how bad it is "I'm probably looking at surgery, But first they have to do something about the infection, They can't operate while it's like that. So, For now, I'm home Taking three different antibiotics, Levaquin, Bactrim and Flagyl but if it really starts bothering me, I'm supposed to go straight to the emergency room.

There are lots of things going through my mind. Did you know, The anesthesia they put people to sleep with reportedly lowers a persons I.Q? I've heard as much, I don't know if it's true or not.
I would suggest taking an IQ test before and after. :)
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
I've slept most of the day, The times I'm awake I'm insanely thirsty, I've got that otherworldly feeling that people get when they have the flu or something. everything feels like I'm watching it in a movie, like a dizzy dissociated "not real" feeling.

I think it's time to lay down again. Not a good day.
 

SOUL-DRIFTER

Life Long Researcher
Somehow I missed this one brother. I'm sorry, Yes the doctor was very specific, He told me That my Colon was perforated I asked where, of course it is in my upper left abdomen where I had been having all the pain, He told me that he won't be back in his office till Monday and I need to see him and then Go see Doctor Corban who is going to give me a Gi "Thing" Where they put me to sleep and run a camera in there to see how bad it is "I'm probably looking at surgery, But first they have to do something about the infection, They can't operate while it's like that. So, For now, I'm home Taking three different antibiotics, Levaquin, Bactrim and Flagyl but if it really starts bothering me, I'm supposed to go straight to the emergency room.

There are lots of things going through my mind. Did you know, The anesthesia they put people to sleep with reportedly lowers a persons I.Q? I've heard as much, I don't know if it's true or not.

I have been put under with the stuff 9 or 10 times. I do not feel any different. I am as good now with mental challenge games as ever...perhaps even better.
 

pigfarmer

tall, thin, irritable
Colon was perforated

Medical proof that you are full of shit after all ? :)

You don't remember a problem with your your last fencing lesson, or maybe a dart game gone terribly awry?

That sucks but at least they found it. No joy in life with all those meds running through you and no, I don't think the anesthetic does any permanent harm. Consider it a form of time travel.

Hope you at least have a quiet weekend and get some rest
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
How I think it really began was strange, I think it began with me undercooking food. Sometimes I get in a hurry and I don't fully cook stuff as I should have, I'm pretty sure all this began with me catching e choli, I thought It was food poisoning, I was sick for about a week hurting in the same spot I do now. And things never really got right again after that point. I think I got food poisoning and it literally ate holes in my guts. I'm not a cook, You throw things in the microwave and it smells done or not... I thought, If I get sick It will just be a temporary thing. This time It wasn't. If they can fix this, I'm changing everything about my diet.
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
I have been put under with the stuff 9 or 10 times. I do not feel any different. I am as good now with mental challenge games as ever...perhaps even better.
I'm pretty sure I'll be alright. My problem is, It's been so long since I've not had pain. I was prepared to accept it was going to be this way forever. But they tell me this isn't the kind of thing I can just wait through. I'm gonna have to go through with this, If I don't, Sepsis Is what I'll be looking toward :/

Oddly, The pain is a lot worse since the infection medicine. I don't know if that's normal or what...
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
I said I would give updates this one seemed worth giving. I woke up this morning feeling great. Like there is nothing wrong. I'm sure most of the infection must be gone, I feel like a million dollars :) I'm still going to follow up with the doctor tomorrow and Tuesday, But damn, I feel good today :)
 
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