Vanity and Egoism

pepe

Celestial
Met a bloke in a pub one night, had a face only his mother could love. In walked this beautiful creature and he called out over here sweetheart. I did a double take at him and laughed out loud in his face, right up to the point she arrived by his side. Then he laughed out loud in my face and she asked what the joke was. I was speachless and he wispered something in her ear and she laughed like a drain.

I stayed with them for a few hours and this guy just had something about him when you got to know him a bit.

Charisma.

Anyone here know what I look like ?
 

Kchoo

At Peace.
Met a bloke in a pub one night, had a face only his mother could love. In walked this beautiful creature and he called out over here sweetheart. I did a double take at him and laughed out loud in his face, right up to the point she arrived by his side. Then he laughed out loud in my face and she asked what the joke was. I was speachless and he wispered something in her ear and she laughed like a drain.

I stayed with them for a few hours and this guy just had something about him when you got to know him a bit.

Charisma.

Anyone here know what I look like ?
Just like your avatar, would be my guess...
 

nivek

As Above So Below
Anyone here know what I look like ?

I did post a picture of myself on AU/AH when at the time quite a few were. Not sure if any of those few are here.

I would be one of those few and saw a pic of you one other time besides that, if memory serves, if so that was around the same time, do you remember armageddongirl?...

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nivek

As Above So Below
I would be one of those few and saw a pic of you one other time besides that, if memory serves, if so that was around the same time, do you remember armageddongirl?...

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That being said, my recollection of the images are fading, that was a while ago...I've changed quite a bit, mostly my hair, its long and haven't lost any of it...

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pepe

Celestial
I would be one of those few and saw a pic of you one other time besides that, if memory serves, if so that was around the same time, do you remember armageddongirl?...

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Yes there was another one nivek, I was a peacock peacocking into my webcam.

Of course I remember her, I flew like a peacock heading for the Midlands for a rendezvous. First time I met her I had trapped a nerve in my back and was dragging my left leg like a zombie. Yes a handful of times I met with her for the weekend.

I didn't cut the mustard but I smoked a heap of weed up there, maybe if I had been a little sharper, who knows.
 

nivek

As Above So Below
Yes there was another one nivek, I was a peacock peacocking into my webcam.

Of course I remember her, I flew like a peacock heading for the Midlands for a rendezvous. First time I met her I had trapped a nerve in my back and was dragging my left leg like a zombie. Yes a handful of times I met with her for the weekend.

I didn't cut the mustard but I smoked a heap of weed up there, maybe if I had been a little sharper, who knows.

I remember a picture of her that she sent me years ago, lovely woman, its been about seven years I think since I've spoken to her...

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pepe

Celestial
That being said, my recollection of the images are fading, that was a while ago...I've changed quite a bit, mostly my hair, its long and haven't lost any of it...

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Nine years ago or there abouts. Long time ago. I have changed my physique, it was armageddongirl who had me pumping iron to shape up for the grand openning. Been pumping it ever since, everyday without fail so far. Rust all over my manhood.

I tell you for sure, she will land on her feet. Just not in my backyard is all.

Luck of the Irish has the one who sails in her.

Still, they all turn into some sort of unseen nightmare sooner or later. Thing is I can see it coming a mile off now days.

It's too late for change and just in time to notice the difference.
 

pepe

Celestial
I remember a picture of her that she sent me years ago, lovely woman, its been about seven years I think since I've spoken to her...

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She was as nice as she looked too nivek. Yes it was about two years of knowing her online until I met her. I made her laugh I know that, it was all I had in the bag. Talking of bags, she asked me to pass her bag to her across the table and it was so heavy I said fuck in hell that's a weight, what have you got in there ? She looked at me, smiled and said rocks. I mean what are you supposed to say, all I could say was fair enough and laugh.
 

Georgek

George
It's kind of an oldie, I'm a little more grey now, Just a bit. If I'm not mistaken, several months ago, Nivek posted some pics of him at work, I think we saw him in those. I can't be sure.


They say the grass is always greener on the other side, And I think that's true, I've been trying to sharpen my mind for a while now. In spite of the fact that In many ways I'm losing it. What I would give to have a deeper understanding of particle and astrophysics. Things like how someone looks, That can get a person into some interesting situations.

You were speaking about being kind of sheltered earlier? I was too, I think it probably shows. When the schools wanted to send me to a Lexington home for gifted children, they called it an optimal environment. Luckily they don't do this anymore, After that point, my parents sheltered me to the point of literal abuse, I couldn't even go outside on the front lawn. being sheltered most of ones life can lead to some interesting problems, Like not really knowing when someone is joking or how to interact with people. I'm still terribly awkward till this day.

Some people could say well, My parents must have been mean, Nah, It's just after the school tried to take me away we moved and they changed me to what they call "Homebound" That is where teachers would come to my home to teach me. It's kind of like a poor man's private schooling I guess. My first true day of any kind of real freedom was when I was eighteen, I moved into an apartment against my parent's wishes. when they asked me why I told them it was because it was important that I have a life lol


Imagine the lessons I learned about women and it was at an awkwardly late stage in my life. It's not good to shelter people too much. Till this day, Old habits die hard. I'd rather be in a room by myself without any company than leave my home. It can really mess people up, But, I feel my case was probably an extreme case though. Even if, I didn't have these Bipolar issues, I'd still have trouble communicating with people in a non-awkward fashion.

We take the cards we are dealt I suppose. But, I learned really important stuff, Way to late in life as a result.

Hello 'ShadowProphet'

This is very interesting. I too shared your your suffering as a kid. May even be bi-polar myself? Who cares...lol


What is attaching itself to me? As I look towards your avatar tears swell up in my eyes. As a psychic they are not quite rolling down my face.At this stage I am cold reading you but the tears are not from the 'cold reading'

I have never felt so much hurt for a long time. I want to write more but it is getting personal and involves someone else.

Oh my God.....I can write a dozen pages...I am switching off.

With you 'ShadowProphet' your emotions are so strong that lucid pictures in colour are forming.

I am sure 'nivek' won't mind me saying this short sentence.....
I can't see him! All I am getting is this charcoal effect smoke and faint image.

Even if he asked me, I would not read him because his image is weak. 1/10.

Yours is about 8/10 if not higher?

This is because of all your emotion flying across.

It is building up around you and stifling.

Look how sensitive i was as a kid?

I looked frightened.

Talk soon

Regards

George
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
Hello 'ShadowProphet'

This is very interesting. I too shared your your suffering as a kid. May even be bi-polar myself? Who cares...lol


What is attaching itself to me? As I look towards your avatar tears swell up in my eyes. As a psychic they are not quite rolling down my face.At this stage I am cold reading you but the tears are not from the 'cold reading'

I have never felt so much hurt for a long time. I want to write more but it is getting personal and involves someone else.

Oh my God.....I can write a dozen pages...I am switching off.

With you 'ShadowProphet' your emotions are so strong that lucid pictures in colour are forming.

I am sure 'nivek' won't mind me saying this short sentence.....
I can't see him! All I am getting is this charcoal effect smoke and faint image.

Even if he asked me, I would not read him because his image is weak. 1/10.

Yours is about 8/10 if not higher?

This is because of all your emotion flying across.

It is building up around you and stifling.

Look how sensitive i was as a kid?

I looked frightened.

Talk soon

Regards

George

Thank you, bro,

You have no idea how much I appreciate that. There has been a lot of pain and some loss that I was never able to process. For a long time, It made me bitter, Imagine a Version of me that was always in Flipped out mode... Luckily, At some point, My heart opened enough to realize, Everyone has pain. I never want to cause people pain.

To be truly honest though. Yeah. it's been a rough ride for ole Shadowprophet, But, I got lucky at some point.
After drownding for a very long time in Depression. Something just happened. In that pain, I was able to see, And I noticed I wasn't alone in there. Since that time, I've never felt alone. I can't always help when I have episodes where I flip. But Things like AE, Where there are people that really do understand. That helps more than anyone could imagine.

I overcame a lot of the pain from the past, But, My true desire is to help people. I know there are other people with problems like mine, With hurt like what I've lived with. If I could just help some of those people. Then everything will have been worth it. Things that would normally destroy some people are things that I'm strong enough to power through. I would like to be able to teach that to people. Some day, If I ever get the opportunity. I will. :)
 

nivek

As Above So Below
Nine years ago or there abouts. Long time ago. I have changed my physique, it was armageddongirl who had me pumping iron to shape up for the grand openning. Been pumping it ever since, everyday without fail so far. Rust all over my manhood.

I tell you for sure, she will land on her feet. Just not in my backyard is all.

Luck of the Irish has the one who sails in her.

Still, they all turn into some sort of unseen nightmare sooner or later. Thing is I can see it coming a mile off now days.

It's too late for change and just in time to notice the difference.

Yeah it has been closer to nine years ago...I used to have long hair when I was younger up until I joined the military and had it all cut off...Since those Navy years I had kept my hair short and many times around the house and whatnot I had been wearing hats...I got tired of wearing hats, had three and tossed them in the bin and decided to grow my hair out long again like it used to be and now it is and it feels great lol...I mention still having all my hair cause I'm getting older now and I've heard wearing a hat can cause loss of hair, don't know if that's true or not but not in my case...But really, in native american cultures its believed the hair is an extension of the nervous system and the soul, I know I feel much better about myself physically now my hair is long again and maybe there's a bit of vanity mixed in that too lol...

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pigfarmer

tall, thin, irritable
Hair is like heartbeats - use it up early and too bad, you get no more. I once had mountains of incredibly curly hair and now I have a whole lot more face to wash. Not shaved but what hair I have is buzzed right down. Very convenient actually and quite comfortable. Don't use shampoo, brushes or combs. Just a washcloth.

Doesn't bother me at all but even in these days of over the top correctness bald jokes are the one comment about personal appearance that's still acceptable. Comments about how grotesquely fat people generally are anymore definitely are on the no-no list.
 

pepe

Celestial
Yeah it has been closer to nine years ago...I used to have long hair when I was younger up until I joined the military and had it all cut off...Since those Navy years I had kept my hair short and many times around the house and whatnot I had been wearing hats...I got tired of wearing hats, had three and tossed them in the bin and decided to grow my hair out long again like it used to be and now it is and it feels great lol...I mention still having all my hair cause I'm getting older now and I've heard wearing a hat can cause loss of hair, don't know if that's true or not but not in my case...But really, in native american cultures its believed the hair is an extension of the nervous system and the soul, I know I feel much better about myself physically now my hair is long again and maybe there's a bit of vanity mixed in that too lol...

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I recall your picture well nivek. I never knew it was the Indians who thought of this, I thought it was the hippies. I feel more approachable with longer hair but do have flat top every now and then,m when I'm feeling a bit two tone.
 
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