Spiritual Growth, The Thing's I've learned over time.

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
Growth is a strange thing, You can't truly tell someone else how to grow because people are unique and need different choices and different pearls of wisdom to grow and learn. For me, My growth was kind of like this.
My early life is highly edited, let us just say, If you can imagine a way a child can be abused, I was abused that way. None of this was by my parents. In my early life, I had no wisdom and no true understanding of Spirit.

In my teens and early twenties, I had outgrown fear and graduated to Anger and cruelty.
There isn't much to say about this time in my life other than, I was obsessed with being an apex person.
I was arrogant, Vane, Angry, Manipulative, and if someone pushed me too far very dangerous.
At this time in my life, It would have been nothing for me to take someone's life If I felt threatened, I would have just as soon stabbed someone than fistfight them as a man would.

I look back on this as the dark times, In my late twenties, I lost my two Daughters. It was sudden and unexpected and the most profound moment I have ever experienced. When I knew I loved someone else more than myself, The moment I died and went into the ground with them. Ever since that time, I have known what it felt like for something to be greater than myself and lose that thing. I was no longer the center of my universe and I began to grow as a person. I've made many mistakes along the way, But I've learned a lot, It's lead me to be the person that you know.

Today in my forties, My universe has room for many people, and in it, I am the least of all. I am no longer angry Because there is so much to be thankful for, I am no longer Arrogant, Because What makes a person who he or she is, is how that person treats other people. So I tend to put other people in much higher regard.
I am no longer Vane, I don't know what happened there, I just over time realized the physical look of someone is almost meaningless, the quality of a person is the only true value that exists. I am no longer manipulative, This is an aspect of myself that I realized, made me feel disgusting, It was a dirty feeling to manipulate others, it's something that just fell off the map at some point. I am no longer dangerous,
I would more quickly use my wit to avoid conflict and if I must have conflict, I will fight like a man with some dignity and backbone would. To lose a fight is nothing, knowing when to fight is everything.

I don't know why I'm saying all of this, I think at this point, I'm just bored and blogging. My goal is to become a better person, I see people out there, Who have never once made the mistakes I've made, Who have never even thought the thoughts I have. Those people are my role models, I want to be a better person, and I Strive at it every day. Because no one can see your flaws more clearly than your own self.

SP.
 

Kchoo

At Peace.
We all make mistakes... the key is learning to get past them, to grow beyond them. And sometimes we still mess up, and we continue. As we get older, we start to get it right. It is like life is only long enough to reach maturity, and we are suddenly old, and not very interesting, but we get it.

Towards the end, Our life becomes summed up in a sound bite, or epitaph.

FOR me, It is “Accept all living things.”

I am hopeful that I will celebrate my birthday every year for the next 38 years or so... that way I can enjoy my sound bite, and take its advice while I have time...

Maybe I even have enough time to come up with a better one...

But I won’t be gone, just dead....

Maybe my epitaph should say, “SMILE, I’m not gone, in fact, I am standing right behind you.”
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
We all make mistakes... the key is learning to get past them, to grow beyond them. And sometimes we still mess up, and we continue. As we get older, we start to get it right. It is like life is only long enough to reach maturity, and we are suddenly old, and not very interesting, but we get it.

Towards the end, Our life becomes summed up in a sound bite, or epitaph.

FOR me, It is “Accept all living things.”

I am hopeful that I will celebrate my birthday every year for the next 38 years or so... that way I can enjoy my sound bite, and take its advice while I have time...

Maybe I even have enough time to come up with a better one...

But I won’t be gone, just dead....

Maybe my epitaph should say, “SMILE, I’m not gone, in fact, I am standing right behind you.”
I used to think about what my final words would be, What would people remember about me?

I want if anything, I want people to know, That Anyone, No matter how bad things have been, Anyone can find happiness, That I've had a lifetime of struggling with processing very painful and complicated emotions and I've learned, Emotions are powerful, It's important to Choose what emotions you want to feel and express. Some people may believe we are at the whims of our emotions and we feel how we do because of some uncontrollable outside force. I want if anything for people to remember, That everybody, No matter who you are or what you have experienced can find happiness, Emotions are a thing we can hold on to, And if we seek to find happiness we will eventually find it.

Lots of people could say I'm Sad for X reasons, I have every reason in the world to be sad, And I used to be. But I truly am a happy man, And I truly do Experience Joy, Most of the time in fact.

I want people to know, As my epitaph, That if you seek joy long enough, You will find it for certain, because after a while of outwardly looking for joy you eventually find it inward.

People May Think, I'm talking out of my ass here, But no, If you Truly seek Joy long enough, Your mind stops focusing on the sadness and as it does, You heal and eventually, you or anyone can find Joy, You just have truly seek for it.
 

Rick Hunter

Celestial
I'm really hoping I can take the modest amount of spiritual growth I have acquired in this life into the next one. It would really suck to start all over!
 

nivek

As Above So Below
The things I learned over time was myself, then 'I' woke up...

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dlw

Saved by grace
Shadowprophet its great that you are feeling good:) Words i try to live by are those who strive to be first will be last and those who are last shall be first.I know i will fail at that many times and at times i just have to ask what would Jesus do.
I never knew what joy was in my life untill i came to Christ.Im not really very good at expressing my feelings.A lot easyer to say it with a song.
Word of life-Jeremy Camp
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
Shadowprophet its great that you are feeling good:) Words i try to live by are those who strive to be first will be last and those who are last shall be first.I know i will fail at that many times and at times i just have to ask what would Jesus do.
I never knew what joy was in my life untill i came to Christ.Im not really very good at expressing my feelings.A lot easyer to say it with a song.
Word of life-Jeremy Camp
Dlw :D I've missed you, bro, I was just the other day wondering about you, How have you been? I'm glad you found us :D
 

dlw

Saved by grace
Doing ok, semi retired now.Never knew how fast a day could go by till i stoped punching the time clock.I give thanks everyday:)blessed be the Lord
 
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