Shadowprophet
Truthiness
Growth is a strange thing, You can't truly tell someone else how to grow because people are unique and need different choices and different pearls of wisdom to grow and learn. For me, My growth was kind of like this.
My early life is highly edited, let us just say, If you can imagine a way a child can be abused, I was abused that way. None of this was by my parents. In my early life, I had no wisdom and no true understanding of Spirit.
In my teens and early twenties, I had outgrown fear and graduated to Anger and cruelty.
There isn't much to say about this time in my life other than, I was obsessed with being an apex person.
I was arrogant, Vane, Angry, Manipulative, and if someone pushed me too far very dangerous.
At this time in my life, It would have been nothing for me to take someone's life If I felt threatened, I would have just as soon stabbed someone than fistfight them as a man would.
I look back on this as the dark times, In my late twenties, I lost my two Daughters. It was sudden and unexpected and the most profound moment I have ever experienced. When I knew I loved someone else more than myself, The moment I died and went into the ground with them. Ever since that time, I have known what it felt like for something to be greater than myself and lose that thing. I was no longer the center of my universe and I began to grow as a person. I've made many mistakes along the way, But I've learned a lot, It's lead me to be the person that you know.
Today in my forties, My universe has room for many people, and in it, I am the least of all. I am no longer angry Because there is so much to be thankful for, I am no longer Arrogant, Because What makes a person who he or she is, is how that person treats other people. So I tend to put other people in much higher regard.
I am no longer Vane, I don't know what happened there, I just over time realized the physical look of someone is almost meaningless, the quality of a person is the only true value that exists. I am no longer manipulative, This is an aspect of myself that I realized, made me feel disgusting, It was a dirty feeling to manipulate others, it's something that just fell off the map at some point. I am no longer dangerous,
I would more quickly use my wit to avoid conflict and if I must have conflict, I will fight like a man with some dignity and backbone would. To lose a fight is nothing, knowing when to fight is everything.
I don't know why I'm saying all of this, I think at this point, I'm just bored and blogging. My goal is to become a better person, I see people out there, Who have never once made the mistakes I've made, Who have never even thought the thoughts I have. Those people are my role models, I want to be a better person, and I Strive at it every day. Because no one can see your flaws more clearly than your own self.
SP.
My early life is highly edited, let us just say, If you can imagine a way a child can be abused, I was abused that way. None of this was by my parents. In my early life, I had no wisdom and no true understanding of Spirit.
In my teens and early twenties, I had outgrown fear and graduated to Anger and cruelty.
There isn't much to say about this time in my life other than, I was obsessed with being an apex person.
I was arrogant, Vane, Angry, Manipulative, and if someone pushed me too far very dangerous.
At this time in my life, It would have been nothing for me to take someone's life If I felt threatened, I would have just as soon stabbed someone than fistfight them as a man would.
I look back on this as the dark times, In my late twenties, I lost my two Daughters. It was sudden and unexpected and the most profound moment I have ever experienced. When I knew I loved someone else more than myself, The moment I died and went into the ground with them. Ever since that time, I have known what it felt like for something to be greater than myself and lose that thing. I was no longer the center of my universe and I began to grow as a person. I've made many mistakes along the way, But I've learned a lot, It's lead me to be the person that you know.
Today in my forties, My universe has room for many people, and in it, I am the least of all. I am no longer angry Because there is so much to be thankful for, I am no longer Arrogant, Because What makes a person who he or she is, is how that person treats other people. So I tend to put other people in much higher regard.
I am no longer Vane, I don't know what happened there, I just over time realized the physical look of someone is almost meaningless, the quality of a person is the only true value that exists. I am no longer manipulative, This is an aspect of myself that I realized, made me feel disgusting, It was a dirty feeling to manipulate others, it's something that just fell off the map at some point. I am no longer dangerous,
I would more quickly use my wit to avoid conflict and if I must have conflict, I will fight like a man with some dignity and backbone would. To lose a fight is nothing, knowing when to fight is everything.
I don't know why I'm saying all of this, I think at this point, I'm just bored and blogging. My goal is to become a better person, I see people out there, Who have never once made the mistakes I've made, Who have never even thought the thoughts I have. Those people are my role models, I want to be a better person, and I Strive at it every day. Because no one can see your flaws more clearly than your own self.
SP.