I did not really understand the point with " acting like a freak" to be honest. still hurts a bit when I read how honest other people are, and no one attack them, and then i was honest and do not write reply if I am emotional. And you write that I act like a freak. It is rude. sorry. Of course you are free, but i am free to ignore manipulation too.
This is a forum where we explore the paranormal. nothing is freakish about that.
Over time I realized that from the opinions of others mentally ill person is defined by behaviour "сама себе на уме"
If someone attacks you. you reacts in some way. Then the behaviour is natural cause of something. Sorry I desagree with you. Have you ever met a psychopath? behave just fine all time almost. nothing wrong with them.
Have you met their victim? they are called mentally ill. why? cause of the manipulation of feelings.
so I ignore manipulation as a waste of time and thing everything of speculations, thoughts and ideas on a paranormal forum is ok.
If it is not, then i am suspicious about why the forum is there.
Love, hug and blessings from me