Back from the dentist.

Georgek

George
I fear to lose my teeth, I fully admit it's a vanity issue.

I was thinking about you today. We see my mum four times a day as dementia is setting in. She is 92 years old.

Well...I was looking at her and she only has one tooth and these roots like something out of 'Jaws'..lol
She is like one of these zombie flesh eaters. What a sight!!

When we went to see her this morning it was like the morgue at Wilford Hill! What a sight!

She is now looking for another husband as we will need two hoists. Might try the local lunatic asylum !

Keep telling her that grandma is dead, a she died 33 years ago. By which she says:- "Not that grandma...the other grandma!"

She was in a state of shock the other day thinking that some lizards and monkeys had jumped out of the television and had got under her bed!

Had to wack the carpet with a stick.

Now tell's Julie that she had an affair with her husband and now she is going to divorce him!

All Hell broke lose earlier on as she told the 'sitters' to get lost. Shouting and screaming for the police as she heard them rooting upstairs for her jewellery and money. Nothing worth stealing...as Julie said that she never felt so embarrassed in her life!

She is okay with the Asian carers...it's the Brits that she don't like...calling them rob dogs having stolen monuments from her garden in Cyprus for the British Museum when they took Cyprus from the Turks. Nick anything she used to say and invading others.

They were highly traumatised but said that they were used to it. Threw her plastic beaker at one of them.

She could hear:- "Gerrout!!!! GERROUT!!!!"

When the carers came:- "Oh how are you have you had a nice day?"

Then how is my handsome son today?

Julie said:- Cataracts must be getting worse as well as she is stone deaf!

I waited outside today with terrible stomach ache. It started when I was writing to J**n.
He got on my nerves a bit and I was a bit blunt with him?
I recon he had something to do with missionary work when he learnt Voo-Doo? Must have hammered a nail in my stomach using a doll ? I am the only person having my own picture as my avatar.

Probably have to make an appointment to see a Witch Doctor?

The house got struck by lightning as well and a tile fell off. The insurance company said:- "Act of God..not covered"

(we don't know do we??? Not mentioning any names but he seems a nice guy)

Anyway we phoned someone up who wanted a £150. He only lived a mile away and it would only take ten minutes!

"Well **** you as well....and stuff it up your ****"

What did he want me to photograph the tile for?

Gonna grab a roofer from across the road and pay him £25 and whilst he is up there he can turn our TV areal around. (or some invalid who will work cheap with a safety net in the front garden..lol)

It was like the Monsoons of India the other week..there is a fish pond in the loft.

Thought about doing it myself just hope an ambulance is not far away. If the bl**dy chimney falls down knowing my bad luck.....some b*gger will take the bricks!
 
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Georgek

George
I think with mum, she does not mean what she says.
Nor does she understand with her illness.

She comes across really insulting and gets away with it.

I get it as well...telling me that i am disgrace.

One carer she asked if she was pregnant?

Something you would not dare ask. The girl was just overweight.

As a family we always said what we thought. At times you have to be polite and diplomatic but lose all that when the disease takes it's grip.

Mum does not reason. The sitters are very nice people .

She will look at things on face value by appearance a lot of the time and will reflect to some event many years ago.
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
I think with mum, she does not mean what she says.
Nor does she understand with her illness.

She comes across really insulting and gets away with it.

I get it as well...telling me that i am disgrace.

One carer she asked if she was pregnant?

Something you would not dare ask. The girl was just overweight.

As a family we always said what we thought. At times you have to be polite and diplomatic but lose all that when the disease takes it's grip.

Mum does not reason. The sitters are very nice people .

She will look at things on face value by appearance a lot of the time and will reflect to some event many years ago.
I will tell you something, Normally I wouldn't post something like this publicly online, However, I don't feel anyone will think less of me for it, My mother has always had severe mental issues. I've lived my entire life with the pain she inflicted on me, When I was 13, She got angry at me and spent the best part of half a day trying to convince me she was sorry she never got an abortion, And I don't mean subtly, I mean outright genuine effort, I spent my entire youth just dealing with the kinds of mental inflictions that spilled forth from her onto me. The likes of which this room isn't even ready to hear.

People may think, Well how can this be, Surely shadow would be severely mentally damaged if he survived all these things he claims. " on that note, I will give the room a moment to collect that thought" We spend a lot of our lives looking to our parents for perfection, Fully expecting that the things they say, The things they do, Come from a place of pure understanding and intent.

But what we never stop to consider, or most of us anyway. Is that No one is perfect and everyone makes mistakes.
I Never realized how Ill my mom was until I was grown, Even though she had gone to doctors for it, Even though she had even been institutionalized for it. In my heart, I was certain she meant the harms she caused.

Some lessons are hard learned. It wasn't until I was older and developed similar afflictions that I truly understood my mom.

I love my mother, I would die to protect her. It took a long time for me to realize she was the afflicted, Not the affliction.
Even from my own episodes, I've learned, It's very difficult to be rational when rationality is the first thing to fade at the first sign of any problem, Be it hurt feelings or just stress. We cloth ourselves with Calm and rational behavior, But those things are simple illusions, Much like someone favorite pair of socks or their comfy shirt, Over time, rationality in some people will fade and become worn if not completely stop.

The trick to honoring someone you love having this happen to them, Is to remember them at their best and know beyond doubt beyond reason that they are still that person.

Because just like the setting sun, if we are lucky enough to hold on for that long, We too will completely lose our rationality. Our minds and our senses will someday fade, But our hearts never do, In her mind when she sees you, She still sees that child that she raised. The Joy to that is, That is what you really are to her. It's her testament to you.
She defends your honor, While not even fully able to understand the world around her. With a furious love that cannot be calmed.


You Cup Runneth over even the twilight of the setting sun. Rejoice
 

michael59

Celestial
You too, eh? Mommymindfuck.

Me three. She sat me down at the kitchen table when I was ten years old and told me she hated my guts since the day I was born. She usually only spoke like that when she was drunk and then I wouldn't take it personal, but that time she was only drinking tea.

At the time, I just sat there stone faced and said nothing. It still bothers me to this day.
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
Me three. She sat me down at the kitchen table when I was ten years old and told me she hated my guts since the day I was born. She usually only spoke like that when she was drunk and then I wouldn't take it personal, but that time she was only drinking tea.

At the time, I just sat there stone faced and said nothing. It still bothers me to this day.
It took me a lifetime to just rationalize it all, The lucky ones among us realize with time that some kinds of mental abuse aren't truly intentional, It's a holdover from the abuses they themselves suffered.

At least, That's how I try to rationalize it.
 

Georgek

George
I will tell you something, Normally I wouldn't post something like this publicly online, However, I don't feel anyone will think less of me for it, My mother has always had severe mental issues. I've lived my entire life with the pain she inflicted on me, When I was 13, She got angry at me and spent the best part of half a day trying to convince me she was sorry she never got an abortion, And I don't mean subtly, I mean outright genuine effort, I spent my entire youth just dealing with the kinds of mental inflictions that spilled forth from her onto me. The likes of which this room isn't even ready to hear.

Sorry to read this mate. I can imagine how hurtful these things can be.
I am no expert on these matters, but feel free to email me anything that you do not wish to put on line.


People may think, Well how can this be, Surely shadow would be severely mentally damaged if he survived all these things he claims. " on that note, I will give the room a moment to collect that thought" We spend a lot of our lives looking to our parents for perfection, Fully expecting that the things they say, The things they do, Come from a place of pure understanding and intent

I do agree. My trouble is that i say what I think too much. Was never taught how to be robotic or say things that I should not.

My life had been very sheltered as I had not been working with others in my working life. People say:- "Oh you can't say that anymore!"

I grew up this way. I never really knew that it is wrong for kids to play 'Cowboy and Indians' anymore?

Until I read that the police were called because a toy gun was poking out of a window.

They came heavy handed with machine guns. Terrible!

When I was a kid, the Teds used to wear a sheaf knife for dressing up. Every kid had a knife.
We used to carry knives for witling and target practice.


But what we never stop to consider, or most of us anyway. Is that No one is perfect and everyone makes mistakes.
I Never realized how Ill my mom was until I was grown, Even though she had gone to doctors for it, Even though she had even been institutionalized for it. In my heart, I was certain she meant the harms she caused

They just can't help it. Now mum has got dementia...I was sitting in the other room and could hear:-

"Is George dead?"

I coughed my tea up. Then I heard:- "Not my George...your George"

Apparently there are two of me

I love my mother, I would die to protect her. It took a long time for me to realize she was the afflicted, Not the affliction.
Even from my own episodes, I've learned, It's very difficult to be rational when rationality is the first thing to fade at the first sign of any problem, Be it hurt feelings or just stress. We cloth ourselves with Calm and rational behavior, But those things are simple illusions, Much like someone favorite pair of socks or their comfy shirt, Over time, rationality in some people will fade and become worn if not completely stop.

The trick to honoring someone you love having this happen to them, Is to remember them at their best and know beyond doubt beyond reason that they are still that person.

Because just like the setting sun, if we are lucky enough to hold on for that long, We too will completely lose our rationality. Our minds and our senses will someday fade, But our hearts never do, In her mind when she sees you, She still sees that child that she raised. The Joy to that is, That is what you really are to her. It's her testament to you.
She defends your honor, While not even fully able to understand the world around her. With a furious love that cannot be calmed.


You Cup Runneth over even the twilight of the setting sun. Rejoice

Well spoken mate
 

nivek

As Above So Below
I'm getting a filling replaced this afternoon, the doc is running late fixing up an emergency tooth problem on another chap, or else he would have been done with me already...lol

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