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Shadowprophet

Truthiness
Normally, When I argue with friends, It's usually my fault,

But tell someone you love them in this day and age, It's as if someone whipped out their penis. people aren't good with emotions, especially the ones they should be seeking. It's both humorous and at the same time Sad.

One would think, To tell someone who thinks they have offended you, No I understand, I love you. That this would quill any fear of a lost friendship. Instead, it brings about an awkward haze. These times are not for me. Not that even in times of much more comfortable they ever were.

However, I am a person who cast away rivalry, What Have I To prove to anyone? I have cast away hate, Which leaves only love for "most people" I'm not perfect, But I'm trying to be. Some people find that contemptuous,

However, When A man Gets a master's degree. It is a degree which states he has mastered that trade When a man models clay, They seek perfection, and in so, Sometimes realize it's the imperfections that truly make it perfect. So I ask Truly, What is so Contemptuous of a man seeking to perfect himself?

Is this not the same goal Of every Craft? Spiritual or artistic?

I will seek this perfection, Though I will never attain it, It is there as a clear path to follow. Those who find fault in this can find fault in many things. And to that I stress, Those who find fault in many things, Those people are looking too hard with a negative eye.
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
I'm going to seek to better myself, No matter how many people hate this. No matter how much contempt it brings from others. No matter how snobby some may think it makes me.


A spiritually lost person may see a Snob. A spiritually enlightened person may see enlightenment.
It is what it is, But If anyone stops their path to please someone else, Then they have allowed others to control them.

The lazy, Like to remain lazy, they want people to sit down to speak to them and they get upset when others don't take that time.

They Call out to the man running a marathon and they become bitter that the man won't stop his run to sit with the lazy man. We can't please everyone.
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
That old 1980's logic,

Be yourself, Because if you be what others want you to be, you will never be who you are.
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
For what it's worth, I do love all my friends, They have all shown me love, So, Why is it so awkward to say it? The world hides behind walls of pride.
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
Another part of a daily blog of sorts.

I have a fever, And I'm very tired, There is a ringing in my ears, My lungs hurt like a strained muscle when I breathe.
It could be allergies, It could be the Flu or a cold, It could be the coronavirus,

But I am not afraid. There is strength in numbers, And In this, I am not alone. We have all spent time panicking, But I have been preparing for what might be. My panic wasn't what is, My panic was, Accepting the possibility of Death.
Do not fear for me, We don't even know that I am sick. I just don't feel good.

But, I am not afraid, Originally, My fear was, Losing a family member, I still fear that. My fear was not the act of dying, My fear was different,

In my religion, When someone dies, there is a Judgment, I tell you all I am no great sinner, no more than any other man. Yet, Many will not be worthy to pass on to Heaven, I fear I may be one of those who are not.

My fear isn't Death, But to be denied eternity. Yet, I can not change my past, If I die, Then I will face judgment,
In my religion, some people will face Judgment, And They will Say, I have cast out demons in your name, I have done this thing or that thing in your name, And God will say, Depart from me, I know you not.

What, If I am not known? My fear is real, Because My sins are real, My mistakes are real, I Walked Out on a perfect marriage, On a woman Who loved me, would have walked through fire for me, To please a whore who only wanted my money, I then, Out of anger, Sought out married women to have sex with, Only out of bitterness to prove what whores women were. At this point, You see the person I was, But not the person I am.

I've tried so hard to kill that person that I was. But, That person still existed once, And I will answer for that person.
It is not Death that frightens me, It's Getting what I truly deserve that frightens me.

If it is religion Or Karma, I can atone all I like, But Atonement isn't payment, I will pay for my sins... I am ready.
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
Why did Christ die?

Thank You DLW, I have always felt the Love of God coming from you, And I know it Because I've Felt it since I was a child. It is unmistakable.

I miss your presence when you are not around.
 

pepe

Celestial
My friend thought he was Christ, the pieces to a picture plucked from existence that complete our meaning.

There is a sad and lonely chance that we are playing the part of nothing more than chance and numbers. With an expiry date and no reset. Even this belief should make a person splendour in our unique condition and smile. This is the belief that I think grants a freedom like no other, independent religion that believes in numerical law and size where life is a certainty.

Not me though, I saw the farmer smile at me.
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
My friend thought he was Christ, the pieces to a picture plucked from existence that complete our meaning.

There is a sad and lonely chance that we are playing the part of nothing more than chance and numbers. With an expiry date and no reset. Even this belief should make a person splendour in our unique condition and smile. This is the belief that I think grants a freedom like no other, independent religion that believes in numerical law and size where life is a certainty.

Not me though, I saw the farmer smile at me.

My view is in this way, What has a man profited by believing that life began at random and ends in an empty void of nothing? And still, What has he lost to believe That Life was created and It may yet continue after death?

If Death is the Axe that Brings oblivion, Has both the believer and the non-believer profited the same? So then, What Folly lays in the belief of God? Because someone says believe as I do or you lack the virtues I have to give?

Who gives those virtues? Who says, to one man, You are wise indeed and to another, That one is a fool? Is this still yet not the one mans opinion? And we see what virtues opinions truly offer, They are nothing but the whims of one in a group of many. So then, What folly does one create for himself by believing differently than another? He only profits himself the comfort of his own beliefs.

Simple words of simple wisdom, But, If it calms a man to believe in God, What harm does it do to another man? Others could say, Christians Cast Judgment, Christians Cause wars, Christians do this thing or that thing. I ask you, This is a word of complicated wisdom, Why does it Hurt the other man, Who does not believe in God to hear that he may Go to hell if he does not accept God? If in that man's heart he does not already know God Is Real?

If a person truly does not believe in God, Then God's opinion of them Would not affect their hearts, Yet, It seems to upset many when they hear his message.

Why is that I wonder?
 

pepe

Celestial
Exclusivity is my answer.

There was always going to be trouble between the cultures and if an army hard the blessing of a God then it was done in its name and formed a right and a unity to commit murder.

Never could I imagine a different past as with the spark comes the question that created diversity to protect life's interest. No different to the fauna surrounding us.

I am religious in my belief just the same as the mainstream and that is integral to each and everyone of us I think. Has to go somewhere as no one can deny its presence.

We are meant to be different and we are turning back to become one.

Exit stage left.
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
Exclusivity is my answer.

There was always going to be trouble between the cultures and if an army hard the blessing of a God then it was done in its name and formed a right and a unity to commit murder.

Never could I imagine a different past as with the spark comes the question that created diversity to protect life's interest. No different to the fauna surrounding us.

I am religious in my belief just the same as the mainstream and that is integral to each and everyone of us I think. Has to go somewhere as no one can deny its presence.

We are meant to be different and we are turning back to become one.

Exit stage left.
Don't forget though, Just as many Misquote Einstein, Many people Think they Speak for God, Like your Friend, Confusion, deception of station exist in every army, I would never claim that people who claimed to be Christian have never done wrong. People Can claim to do something In the name of someone else And do much wrong. Fraud is one of the oldest crimes.

Killers Hide behind God's name, That doesn't make them not killers. But It doesn't make them Truly Gods Children either.
 

pepe

Celestial
Oh yeah we have sickness to our nature that is of the opportunist variety. My friend thought he had failed to deliver a message to human kind and was actually deflated. My laughter pumped him up like a balloon as he did join in but it was real to him for a period.

Fraud was first displayed in the avian society where the male pretends to be lame and draws the predator down the path of least resistance and away from the family, only to fly off when the kin was up and away. Defrauding the fox of the necessary time. Originated as a survival technique and was twisted so one can gain from the act.
 
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Sheltie

Fratty and out of touch.
Another part of a daily blog of sorts.

I have a fever, And I'm very tired, There is a ringing in my ears, My lungs hurt like a strained muscle when I breathe.
It could be allergies, It could be the Flu or a cold, It could be the coronavirus,

But I am not afraid. There is strength in numbers, And In this, I am not alone. We have all spent time panicking, But I have been preparing for what might be. My panic wasn't what is, My panic was, Accepting the possibility of Death.
Do not fear for me, We don't even know that I am sick. I just don't feel good.

But, I am not afraid, Originally, My fear was, Losing a family member, I still fear that. My fear was not the act of dying, My fear was different,

In my religion, When someone dies, there is a Judgment, I tell you all I am no great sinner, no more than any other man. Yet, Many will not be worthy to pass on to Heaven, I fear I may be one of those who are not.

My fear isn't Death, But to be denied eternity. Yet, I can not change my past, If I die, Then I will face judgment,
In my religion, some people will face Judgment, And They will Say, I have cast out demons in your name, I have done this thing or that thing in your name, And God will say, Depart from me, I know you not.

What, If I am not known? My fear is real, Because My sins are real, My mistakes are real, I Walked Out on a perfect marriage, On a woman Who loved me, would have walked through fire for me, To please a whore who only wanted my money, I then, Out of anger, Sought out married women to have sex with, Only out of bitterness to prove what whores women were. At this point, You see the person I was, But not the person I am.

I've tried so hard to kill that person that I was. But, That person still existed once, And I will answer for that person.
It is not Death that frightens me, It's Getting what I truly deserve that frightens me.

If it is religion Or Karma, I can atone all I like, But Atonement isn't payment, I will pay for my sins... I am ready.
Have you been to see a doctor?

The tree pollen count was insanely high here on Mon but then it rained yesterday and that got a lot of it out of the air (thank God). I was having symptoms similar to you but I feel great today.
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
Have you been to see a doctor?

The tree pollen count was insanely high here on Mon but then it rained yesterday and that got a lot of it out of the air (thank God). I was having symptoms similar to you but I feel great today.
I haven't been to a doctor yet, I'm kind of at a stage that if it's not serious, I don't want to risk going out because I could be exposed to something worse, My logic kind of plays out like this, Going to a doctors office, there is a huge chance someone with Coronavirus may be there. I will go though If I absolutely have too, I'm just still at a stage where I think I can risk it :)
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
So, Daily Blog time, Okay, I woke up this morning, The ringing in my ears is still ongoing, My lungs aren't hurting, I'm not coughing, I had a good nights rest.

There is an uneasiness in the atmosphere wherever I go online. There is nowhere one can go and Not see more information about The Covid-19, Which means in every conceivable way the Coronavirus is inescapable, People will say, But SP, It's so important, People need to be informed, I know this, But Every waking moment of one's existence can Not be Covid-19.

Even patients who literally have the virus are encouraged to escape into a book or a movie or a hobby if they can.

Even yesterday, The 1972 series Kung fu I was watching to escape reality came into an episode about smallpox.

I'm on Edge, I've been on Edge, My stepdaughter has developed a very Rude habit, She comes over with her boyfriend every time she comes, It's like she's trying to Show off or something, She says to people, Something, Something, Something, pointless topic, then Finishes up with. "How Dumb are you" After hearing that for about the seventeenth time, I told her, My I.Q Is 157. I am a clinical Genius, The State of Kentucky Attempted to take me away from my parents And It was me who convinced the State of the error in their ways and to leave me and my family be When I was only six years old. "I finished up with, I am certified, And I went to my lockbox and Drew a copy of some Mensa application papers that stated these facts. Lay them down on the table next to her, And Whispered, " How Dumb are you"

She was speechless, Her boyfriend Got upset, So, I walk up to him softly and tell him, You are in the wrong place to be acting out, I'd think twice if I were you. If I have to kick you out, I won't do it softly.


Don't get me wrong, Some people can say, Well Shadow, You overreacted egregiously on this issue. Possibly so, The problem Is, My home is the furthest I can go to find peace, And If not Peace, At least respect.

So, No, This isn't me asking people's opinions on If I handled this correctly. Most people here of age, Know what would have happened if growing up they asked their parents, " How Dumb Are you" I think I handled it like a damned hell assed champion honestly.


Truthfully though, There are Much wiser ways I could have executed in this situation. But, There Tension and Unease, It's Just Not a happy go lucky time in life right now, I don't think anyone feels at peace. I certainly don't.

I await the time When the Tunnel of darkness opens up and reveals some light.
 
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Shadowprophet

Truthiness
Stressful day, Shutting down mentally now. ....

Dog won't stop chewing things, Worried about this corona stuff, And now we have jordans boyfriend over for the weekend and his

Me Me Me Me Me Me Me panic attacks have sat in, I just told the guy, Fuck you, I'm going to bed. ....you have never seen a room look at you the way the room looked at me, But people don't understand, His panic attacks require hours of babying and pampering, I'm just not in the fucking mood.

It would be easy to Judge me at this point and call me a hateful prick, I've had real panic attacks, His panic attack are for attention so Jordan will baby him. Just not down with it.

Can't deal with all the shit anymore.

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Sheltie

Fratty and out of touch.
I just watched The Sopranos for this first time last week. One of the things I found especially interesting is that Tony Soprano suffers from panic attacks, sometimes so severe that he faints. You wouldn't expect to see that in a tough guy character like him.
 

Shadowprophet

Truthiness
I just watched The Sopranos for this first time last week. One of the things I found especially interesting is that Tony Soprano suffers from panic attacks, sometimes so severe that he faints. You wouldn't expect to see that in a tough guy character like him.
Emotions are curious things, People in society are taught, Men do not cry or, One man can not say to another, hey, I love you bro, Society, and social grooming teaches us how not to feel. And that leaves us Unable to control powerful emotions Like Hate or love, So we Fear love, And Let hate consume us.

The truth is, The Stronger man Is the man who shows his emotions, Not hides them, Because the man that shows them doesn't allow others to limit his expression.

In many ways, people control other people, by Calling them Weak or a wuss or a snowflake for crying or showing pain or sorrow, But all this does, in reality, is prove those people who call them those names are so limited in the spirit they wish to hide those blessings in others. It took me an entire lifetime to realize this.
 
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