Yes and no. Hindsight being clear I would have been better off avoiding all that but to put it in perspective things could've been worse. I can think of a few that paid a much, much higher price. Experimentation is one thing, true addiction is another. I had a friend - emphasis on the had part - who is a professional, educated, speaks a couple of languages and has traveled all over the world. Interesting guy and we were friends over 20 years. But for those years he demonstrated a real propensity for arrogance, class, snobbery etc based upon what I've mentioned plus the collection of crap he's accumulated. He and his former wife were the nouveau riche of the area. I can't tell you how many petty comments I endured and mostly shrugged off because he had his good points too. But I was listening and filing those comments away and like grains of sand on a scale it eventually tipped. He showed up here one day behaving strangely and for reasons that aren't really clear to anyone actually thought he was going to climb into bed and plow my wife and that we were OK with it. Really. He went on at such length that we were literally numb with shock and surprise. I disabused him of that right quick. I did so in a very low key way that held a mirror up to his behavior and let his eggshell fragile ego do the rest. Like some martial art with a small move that uses your opponent's weight and strength against them. It's oxycontin and probably other things too. His marriage and life fell apart but it was more from that arrogant and tone deaf personality. You can cure drug addiction but not being a true a*****e to the core. Yet he would have been the first one to make you or I use the service entrance and probably throw a few mocking comments in for good measure. Like many his success is a facade and I am not impressed. Again, this is why I look at the person first and whatever they are saying second. Uniforms, credentials, financial success and all that cover up the same stinking backside we all have. Nah, the only way other people wind up on a pedestal is if you put them there. As for the abuse I inflicted on myself, well, the bill hasn't come due for me but probably will eventually. You gotta die from something. My physical complaints come from the mileage, not the years.