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George
The thing that I remember clearly was how I felt.
Many times I had this churning in my stomach on how to turn it all off?
I recollect a Beatles record named:- 'Help' being played on the radio constantly.
The worst thing was the helplessness that society gave.You were at the mercy of the very people who were meant to protect you.
I also felt a sense of betrayal by which society had lied to me about this phenomena.
I started questioning religion and the governments on the way that they lied to the people. At that young age, there is no reasoning because you are in fact learning reason.
Your reasoning becomes impaired as you no longer trust others.
So you look for others your own kind who you can talk to and discuss as to understand more what is going on.
In a way it isolates you because you have this even stronger feeling of 'not belonging'
Perhaps others may see this as inferior but it had the opposite effect. You feel that you had seen more and know more. That their world is nothing like your world.
The major difference is that you do not think that UFOs exist. You know that they do.There is no argument that can make you think otherwise because they have opinions and you have knowledge.
If you go back to thinking you may be right, then you become unsure of what you had experienced.
It sometimes gets insulting because you hear how others wish you get the help that you need when you do not need any help...other than to learn more.
It creates a block. Mainly because at first you think that you should just shut your mouth.
Then you do and later think:- "Why should I?"
It gets to a point where you look at others straight in the eye and not care in the least.
You give up trying to be like them, and just want to be yourself.
'So they want to chop your head off'?
You think I die a free man.
Now folks say I am the most craziest sucker there is! (thanks I know you don't think so
)
The other thing is that you recognise that you are different. Various thoughts of being special enter your mind as yo begin to think you have a purpose?
It is only natural.
You realise that you are jut gifted to an extent.
This also creates a little unhappiness because you feel that you are gonna wake up one day and lose the gift.
Perhaps having used it incorrectly and that you are now being punished?
Yer..it dos bother me.
It had been said to me, that i have a persecution complex.
I do have one! (sorry)
I like being me and when I feel that my whole being is being persecuted by what I am or what I believe then I feel guttered.
It is true to say that I am also successful now. So I have to 'keep watching my back'
"They say why have you got that I have not...as I want it?"
You have to watch your land, property, car and who is going to rob you.
Your philosophy is:- "I don't trust the b*st***"
The encounters also change your personality.
It is bound to.
One thing that you want to do, is to hide s0 that they do not find you, so that you can live your life in peace, perhaps talk to the walls ...lol
To leave the madness behind by living in the middle of nowhere with miles of countryside only to find that others are there a s to make as much noise that they want because you are just a trouble maker who does not belong there and if you want peace...... a s to go live in afield
You thought you had?
Just all I want to look up at the stars in the still of night. As you cry out to the cosmos to the billion of stars with absolute silence as to know that something up there knows you. To get away from the city, the noise, confusion and madness.
George
Many times I had this churning in my stomach on how to turn it all off?
I recollect a Beatles record named:- 'Help' being played on the radio constantly.
The worst thing was the helplessness that society gave.You were at the mercy of the very people who were meant to protect you.
I also felt a sense of betrayal by which society had lied to me about this phenomena.
I started questioning religion and the governments on the way that they lied to the people. At that young age, there is no reasoning because you are in fact learning reason.
Your reasoning becomes impaired as you no longer trust others.
So you look for others your own kind who you can talk to and discuss as to understand more what is going on.
In a way it isolates you because you have this even stronger feeling of 'not belonging'
Perhaps others may see this as inferior but it had the opposite effect. You feel that you had seen more and know more. That their world is nothing like your world.
The major difference is that you do not think that UFOs exist. You know that they do.There is no argument that can make you think otherwise because they have opinions and you have knowledge.
If you go back to thinking you may be right, then you become unsure of what you had experienced.
It sometimes gets insulting because you hear how others wish you get the help that you need when you do not need any help...other than to learn more.
It creates a block. Mainly because at first you think that you should just shut your mouth.
Then you do and later think:- "Why should I?"
It gets to a point where you look at others straight in the eye and not care in the least.
You give up trying to be like them, and just want to be yourself.
'So they want to chop your head off'?
You think I die a free man.
Now folks say I am the most craziest sucker there is! (thanks I know you don't think so
)The other thing is that you recognise that you are different. Various thoughts of being special enter your mind as yo begin to think you have a purpose?
It is only natural.
You realise that you are jut gifted to an extent.
This also creates a little unhappiness because you feel that you are gonna wake up one day and lose the gift.
Perhaps having used it incorrectly and that you are now being punished?
Yer..it dos bother me.
It had been said to me, that i have a persecution complex.
I do have one! (sorry)
I like being me and when I feel that my whole being is being persecuted by what I am or what I believe then I feel guttered.
It is true to say that I am also successful now. So I have to 'keep watching my back'
"They say why have you got that I have not...as I want it?"
You have to watch your land, property, car and who is going to rob you.
Your philosophy is:- "I don't trust the b*st***"
The encounters also change your personality.
It is bound to.
One thing that you want to do, is to hide s0 that they do not find you, so that you can live your life in peace, perhaps talk to the walls ...lol
To leave the madness behind by living in the middle of nowhere with miles of countryside only to find that others are there a s to make as much noise that they want because you are just a trouble maker who does not belong there and if you want peace...... a s to go live in afield
You thought you had?
Just all I want to look up at the stars in the still of night. As you cry out to the cosmos to the billion of stars with absolute silence as to know that something up there knows you. To get away from the city, the noise, confusion and madness.
George
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