It's kind of an oldie, I'm a little more grey now, Just a bit. If I'm not mistaken, several months ago, Nivek posted some pics of him at work, I think we saw him in those. I can't be sure.
They say the grass is always greener on the other side, And I think that's true, I've been trying to sharpen my mind for a while now. In spite of the fact that In many ways I'm losing it. What I would give to have a deeper understanding of particle and astrophysics. Things like how someone looks, That can get a person into some interesting situations.
You were speaking about being kind of sheltered earlier? I was too, I think it probably shows. When the schools wanted to send me to a Lexington home for gifted children, they called it an optimal environment. Luckily they don't do this anymore, After that point, my parents sheltered me to the point of literal abuse, I couldn't even go outside on the front lawn. being sheltered most of ones life can lead to some interesting problems, Like not really knowing when someone is joking or how to interact with people. I'm still terribly awkward till this day.
Some people could say well, My parents must have been mean, Nah, It's just after the school tried to take me away we moved and they changed me to what they call "Homebound" That is where teachers would come to my home to teach me. It's kind of like a poor man's private schooling I guess. My first true day of any kind of real freedom was when I was eighteen, I moved into an apartment against my parent's wishes. when they asked me why I told them it was because it was important that I have a life lol
Imagine the lessons I learned about women and it was at an awkwardly late stage in my life. It's not good to shelter people too much. Till this day, Old habits die hard. I'd rather be in a room by myself without any company than leave my home. It can really mess people up, But, I feel my case was probably an extreme case though. Even if, I didn't have these Bipolar issues, I'd still have trouble communicating with people in a non-awkward fashion.
We take the cards we are dealt I suppose. But, I learned really important stuff, Way to late in life as a result.