Shadowprophet
Truthiness
Believe it or not, a whole lot of you have heard of Chino, My Baby Minpin, She is eleven years old and she has been sick for two years. There are several times, I thought it was the end for Chino and she somehow manages to pull through. She, Has begun painfully yelping, You can tell it's pain, shortly after I feed her, she will Yelp in great pain for almost thirty minutes, This is on top of the persistent cough she has.
Okay, Here is the reason I posted this, Yeah, We could take her to the Vet, but Sam doesn't want too, Because the vet will simply recommend Euthanization, Things are that bad. But My Question is a moral one, About Death, And what Is proper and What Is expected of me and What I should do, So, Please help me here. Chino Is to Die soon, I know this, It's time, I have done everything I could to extend her life as long as I could, With antibiotics and stomach medications, "all Dog safe of course" I even have to clean what is centimeter thick crust off her eyes daily, It's been this way for over a year.
She is getting close to her time. Now, Here is the problem, She is a good girl, The best, She deserves to be held and petted and for me to be with her through this. But, here is the problem, "I can't take it" The pain is horrible on her, and To be fair, It's more than I can tolerate hearing her Scream for a half-hour at a time. I feel horrible, Running from this, But hear me out,
It's really more than I can take If I want to do something more with my life than sit and cry. Okay? It's a lot, It's hurting me and effecting me in ways, I can't even describe. This is horrible.
So, What I've been doing is turning on comfortable sleep meditation music and bringing her water and food as she will sometimes eat it, And checking in on her every little bit, I'm trying to take as good a care of her as I can, And make her as comfortable as I can. but I feel bad for leaving her side, But it feels horrible being by her side through this. What should I do? Am I doing wrong, By not being there constantly?
It hurts too much to be there through this, But she totally and fully deserves for me to be there through this.
What Do I do?
I don't want to seem like a horrible person, It's not that I don't care enough to be there by her side, It's that I can't take it., It hurts too much, Am I wrong to be this way?
Okay, Here is the reason I posted this, Yeah, We could take her to the Vet, but Sam doesn't want too, Because the vet will simply recommend Euthanization, Things are that bad. But My Question is a moral one, About Death, And what Is proper and What Is expected of me and What I should do, So, Please help me here. Chino Is to Die soon, I know this, It's time, I have done everything I could to extend her life as long as I could, With antibiotics and stomach medications, "all Dog safe of course" I even have to clean what is centimeter thick crust off her eyes daily, It's been this way for over a year.
She is getting close to her time. Now, Here is the problem, She is a good girl, The best, She deserves to be held and petted and for me to be with her through this. But, here is the problem, "I can't take it" The pain is horrible on her, and To be fair, It's more than I can tolerate hearing her Scream for a half-hour at a time. I feel horrible, Running from this, But hear me out,
It's really more than I can take If I want to do something more with my life than sit and cry. Okay? It's a lot, It's hurting me and effecting me in ways, I can't even describe. This is horrible.
So, What I've been doing is turning on comfortable sleep meditation music and bringing her water and food as she will sometimes eat it, And checking in on her every little bit, I'm trying to take as good a care of her as I can, And make her as comfortable as I can. but I feel bad for leaving her side, But it feels horrible being by her side through this. What should I do? Am I doing wrong, By not being there constantly?
It hurts too much to be there through this, But she totally and fully deserves for me to be there through this.
What Do I do?
I don't want to seem like a horrible person, It's not that I don't care enough to be there by her side, It's that I can't take it., It hurts too much, Am I wrong to be this way?