now let's get into something a little deeper and more strange. one that questions if its implanted memories from another entities power or an actual personal moment. flashback to Feb 1, 2017. place: friends house about 45 mins from the house here. Sitting on the ground, holding my baby, my bf sitting in the chair beside me. and BAM! i fall into what i can describe as a feeling of Dejavu. but more lucid. as if i dreamed this before, as if i even lived this before, years and years before but couldn't recall when. [i learned later that my bf saw a multi-layered frequency beam pass right thru his shoulder and directly at me with full force at the moment i started seeing these visions, at the time he didn't want to make light to it, the house was known to be haunted by the guys grandmother] it felt like a crazy spiritual warfare was going on.. like the path of life i was on was trying to change, like evil was trying to keep the same time to make disaster but good was trying to intervene to change the course. i was glimpsing the same objects and moments going on, before they would happen. i tried to let it go thinking it was just a weird case of more dejavu. but it wouldn't end. for hours. [my bf said i would snap into this state of a child, like an 8-yr old child] i was terrified to leave that house, my vision was clear that we were driving home, road conditions were bad, something was wrong with the tire pressure and we crashed resulting in death of my bf and my child. the images were so clear. more like a daydream nightmare than a moment of dejavu. dejavu happens to me where it feels like i was in that moment before. this was an exact replica of what was going on, seen before it happend. after hours and hours of this in and out of nightmare vision and reality my bf finally convinced me we had to go home. in my heart i knew enough time passed to divert the timeline. and man... putting my daughter in her carseat was the hardest thing i've ever had to do. i was in complete tears.. oddly enough we got lost on a familar road that diverted the timeline even more[speculation for sure]. my bf didnt even know how we got lost, weve been on that road many times. the road weather conditions were terrible. snow, ice, roads were white and not plowed yet, visibility not even a few yards] 35+- mph the whole way home. but we made it home. for the next couple months these visions were intensely terrifying. they lasted for over a year. and i still have a couple here and there. this was just the beginning story and i'm sorry if it is confusing to read. its confusing to convey. i've been thoroughly analyzing this whole thing since it began. a part of me wanted to say its just a manipulation of the current moments that were happening. but some of these visions hinted at oncoming danger and disaster i never want to live again.
but... maybe that's what has to happen. maybe.. if your soul wants to relive a moment of your life it has to be in your dreams.. and to live a moment in a dream..somehow, someway the dream has to end.. whether that is on its own, you are awoken, or a nightmare ending has to occur. i will share more of these strange moments with you on further posts.