I would normally ask you to refer to the OP to know what OFFICIALLY all is about, but I recently deleted the old videos and replace them by this following one with few improvments (at least, you still have the thread title as a reminder of what all is about):
Many points have been addressed that, fortunately, don't come back in the new posts, except the reasons for which I am still here. lol.
Not yet! But soon.
My bad. It's probably due to my poor English. You asked:
Did I misread?
Indeed, not yet.
We are too poor to have anything to be donated to anyone, except few plates and forks.
George, read my lips:
ARCHIVES.
As an intelligent guy, I let a trace of my thoughts, deeds and works. I reply to the posters but speak to the readers.
I don't. I even thank them for that as I already said it to The Shadow. That way I develop my thoughts thanks to them for the future readers.
Then I don't know what to say John?
Your English appears very good .
I will quote you something what students used to tell me at college when I apologised in order to get on with them:-
"George...don't keep putting yourself down.......leave it to us!"
I dunno John.......
Belief is not a bad thing and I admire you for it.
If that is what you sincerely believe.....keep plodding!
I once had some wise words from Gerry my friend who I still converse with from my school days.
It was a time when I lost my girlfriend of ten years. We had never got on very well as it was bound to happen.
He kept asking me why I was 'banging my head on a brick wall' ...doing the same thing over and over...making my life a misery?
We must have parted dozens of times...had our flings and got back together.
During the last one, when we were just parting, I told her that I had learnt from my mistakes.
It was the dark of night after I had taken her home and the sky lit up like an arc light with a whoosh like God switching on a light bulb in the clear sky.
It was a message from God/UFOs/spirits or whatever that I was not learning and that I had to move on.
I told Gerry that life was like sand in the desert and that you had to keep digging for water.
Will never forget what he said to me...as he don't speak much...lol
"You are going dig and get sand...then more sand and more sand and then more sand"
I was a bit like you in a way and instead of getting sympathy...I got apathy.
The reason for this John was because I failed to deliver. Simply I was not good enough.
Oh yer...I considered myself good because I was the person with feelings.
These feelings changed into selfish feelings because I never really considered her feeling.
Her feelings were based because I was a loser and her friends kept telling her that she was wasting her time with a man with no money, house or a job. That she deserved better.
She moved on alright spending her time as a barmaid looking for men. Having about more failed rel;relationships than 'hot dinners'
She now lives in a terrace house alone in Long Eaton so I had been told.
People are like that John.
You get a beggar of the street...give him a million pounds and set his life free from drugs and
then he is back there again.
Was I right?
NO.
I had lost so much. My dignity, pride, respect and much more because I was fighting a losing battle.
Now this is why I admire you......
Because I can see YOU in me.
Never ever lose your pride John...because you are already losing your respect .
Your ego..pride will push you through, but it has to change.
Don't keep pushing the same c*ap without foundation.
You cannot keep getting success out of failure.
They know it...and deep down YOU know it.
So what is John????
You know that you are incorrect and you keep 'pushing it'
Try a 'different song'
(I tried getting a job with Marge Proops gossip column...but they were not paying enough...lol)