Truth Time Here is the thing David, I've been shitty lately, That's not your fault, I'm Bipolar. I make excuses, And I tell people about it and I apologize, But people think it's like a Mistake I've made, And I apologize and Maybe I can just stop doing it. The problem is, being bipolar isn't really a thing I can choose to not do, It happens. I will have an episode, And just be generally shitty to people. and, If I could choose to, I wouldn't be that way. It even causes me to isolate myself and go on long sabbaticals and make excuses about why I'm gone all the time. The thing is. I can't trust myself, To not be an asshole to people, in uncalled for and unjust ways. So I remain silent.
you are wondering, What's this got to do with anything. It really does have something to do with things tough.
If it wasn't for Friends Who know me And Know my conditions cleaning up my messes. You would understand, I've been an ass to you.
I don't mean to be. David, I'm a clinical genius., My Iq is 157, But. I'm mentally broken. Really smart people can be mentally unstable. I need you to understand., If I have Said shitty things to you,. That's not how I really see things.
I pushed my mind further than It should be able to go, My whole life, Just to please Schools and Colleges and Bosses.
People can break.
Being an asshole to people, Is not something I enjoy. it's just what happens sometimes when I break. If there was a way to make it stop, I would do whatever that thing was. But as it stands, all I can do is explain myself and apologize when it occurs.