Had another wild episode with the wifes copd (Chronic obstructive pulmonary disease), This is the second time I`ve bout lost her from it.Right now now i`m home getting the house cleaned up in anticipation for her coming home tomorrow or Sunday from the hospital. And what bugs her the most is she gonna miss getting her 1st dan black belt certificate in taekwondo that was gonna be handed to her by the Kukkiwon World Taekwando Headquarters from South Korea masters, that traveled here.And i`m like who the f cares about that, sure its great but when the paramedics have to shove a tube down ya to be able to keep ya breathin and im hearing the paddles go off while they are sitting out front of the house... and there was a couple of times i was taken aside and i thought oh great here it comes they are gonna tell me they lost her. but thank god that didnt happen, but im trying to prepare for that, but how does one? and i`m the type that`d die from heartbreak within 6 months after i`m afraid.