Serenity

Discussion in 'Around the Campfire' started by Shadowprophet, May 21, 2019.

  1. Shadowprophet

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    indeed.
     

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  2. pepe

    pepe Noble

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    I hate it when people people ask me to watch their stuff, what if someone tries to steal it, am I supposed to fight them to uphold my word.

    You pays your money you takes your chance.
     
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  3. Shadowprophet

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    Fighting and stealing and hate, No one is perfect, But the whole thing could have been avoided if someone never asked you to watch their stuff. I mean, On the flip side to that, There is service to self and service to others, I think that's part of what's wrong with me at the moment, Brainwashing of Social media poisoning, This life Google walked so many people into, The content creator life, That's not living a real life or being a real person.

    Google showed us a way to make lots of money. And some of us really did make a nice chunk of change, But it comes at the cost of anything that remotely symbols humanity or normal human interaction. Something people need to understand is when you become one of those content creators well, The ones google secretly interacts with to get them to the top, you are basically mentally reprogrammed, I was tapped because google liked the way I interacted with people, Google literally told me I have a way of interacting and engaging people that could take me really far. It's hard to explain, But our messages must be politically correct, They must reflect a marketable repeatable social manifestation, something that is not hateful and positive, Something that universally not just The UK and America can watch, Something that someone anywhere on earth can watch. When you become groomed to be accepted worldwide it does mess with a person.

    The side you guys don't know about is the mental repercussions, When I become so worldwide politically correct, on the global market, That destroys my personal identity, Some people may be able to avert this, but if you really look around at the number of Social media content creators and correlate that with Mental problems you begin to realize, Google messed up a lot of peoples minds, Worldwide and when they realized they were harming people, Because I honestly think they didn't know they were, They began subverting content creators, isolating them and removing them small group by small group and letting the advertisers instead directly influence people rather than the people they groomed to Influence others. I was groomed, Others here have been groomed and they probably don't even realize it.

    For a long time, I was never incredibly successful, When i started to become successful. because Believe me, If I hadn't stopped and applied myself when I did, I would have been one of those guys at 800k subs right now. But, the stress broke me very early in the game. Ultimately, What I'm getting at brother Pepe is, The Internet is all about Mind control, I tell people I'm crazy, And people would rather hear that, than the truth,

    The truth is, I am sane, But everywhere you go online, You are being controlled, In what you say in how you act, in even what you think, Let me ask you,, Think of some Racist or dirty Joke you have heard in your mind. We are older people, To pretend we haven't laughed at a racist joke before. What kind of bullshit would that be? everyone knows, at one point or another you hear a racist joke and that shit is just as funny as any other joke, But, Even to admit we laughed at that racist joke in this atmosphere would make us racist in the public eye. There is no freedom, At all anymore.

    Look I want to make some things clear, Nivek Isn't just a good person, He's a great person, He has given me opportunities to redeem myself when I absolutely did not deserve them. And other websites know, My loyalties are not purchasable, I will not ever, Betray Nivek, For any reason. So with that said, Even here at this site, We are limited in our speech, If not By societies rule. Then by the next guy who thinks he knows just a little more about the subject you are expressing so he comes through and knocks your sandcastle of a point completely down, just trying to prove how intelligent he is for claps applause and likes.

    Freedom even in the most minuscule way, Does not exist,

    Every interaction I have had and you have had and Nivek has had and Thomas has had and Everyone else has had, Has not been completed by free will. It has been counseled by a governed set of acceptable rules of what is okay to say and what is not, what ideas are okay to have and what is not. My thing is, I see the machine, I see it's machinations, It's a program we do because we are bored.
    Eventually, after seeing the machine for so long, Nothing surprises you anymore.

    It's a deeper kind of boredom, A subject with no surprises anymore, No frill. Nothing, and no reason...
     
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  4. Shadowprophet

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    That's not about here at AE, That's about All human interaction on the entire internet.
    Human interaction is moderated, everywhere, The question isn't does free will exist, The question is, How can it exist? in a world like that?
     
  5. pigfarmer

    pigfarmer tall, thin, irritable

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    Did you get that from Jim Penniston?
     
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  6. pigfarmer

    pigfarmer tall, thin, irritable

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    I may not always know exactly what you are talking about but I'm glad to see you back.

    The Internet and with it instant global communication have just provided an amplifier for our natural human tendencies good and bad. It would seem that as a lot we humans enjoy spewing everything at one another anonymously. It is what it is.

    Kind of what the police are for out in the physical world, eh? If we all got along there would be no need.
     
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  7. pepe

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    This could be a mid life chrysalis you are experiencing, slightly more exclusive than a crisis but the results are alike. An emergence of a different animal in need of a stiff breeze.

    I am pupa wearing a smile but will become a beautiful large cabbage white who has made a deal with the devil by immersing myself in alcohol when I turn sixty. The machine is all of us, ever consuming the labours of others while we sell ourselves on the market.

    The reason why we are governed in such a way is because the truths are still ugly, hope that warms the cockles, even time will struggle to unshackle us from our bias. If we all could say or do what we wanted, the knock on effects would give rise to anarchy.

    I am free enough with just enough education to perform. I have broached issues that some take immediate offence at by me just raising the topic. Never one to shy away from the word unspoken I like to question it. My reason is by default I believe we all suffer these conditions of bias which in a cross lateral way exposes a condition we as a species are trying to shake off by means of denying it's place where it can be understood.

    Have no fear, by giving voice to all the cream will rise and the shit will prop it up by sinking so low.

    Cog.
     
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  8. pepe

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    The Internet for me is a convenience and not a necessity. I only joined in in 2011 and my first interaction was on Alienufo after I was interfered with by a nine footer. Bit of shopping, a bit of this and that is as deep as she'll go for me. I was a prelific poster when I started because I felt a part of something new, I have since realised it is circular in all aspects.

    Ultimately it's where I can say things I have to chose not to mention in company.
     
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  9. Shadowprophet

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    I mean, It's not that I don't see the issue, I've thought a lot about it, I've disassociated myself for over a decade now, I've been more or less a hermit that only ever sees his wife an very few other people. I do this for many reasons,

    Some people would say it's unhealthy, But, I've always been Bipolar, Sometimes, When I'm speaking, I flip and it's not always a violent flip, It's like Adhd, I'm replying from a completely different perspective, and others can't understand the sudden point of view change. That happens to me a lot, I ramble a lot, I'm the kind of person who talks to myself often in public, Mostly,

    Mostly, The issue has been, If My personality keeps changing about thoughts and opinions, Then what do I really feel about things? what are my true opinions? Where do I stand on certain issues?

    It leads to a lot of mental conflicts, in learning and accepting who one really is. being bipolar to the debilitating level that I am. It's easier for me to just be a hermit, In my solitude, I don't seek other peoples judgments or their persecutions Sure, People claim to be enlightened enough to understand that people have issues like this, but in public, in practice when strangers meet a person like me, All I ever see are looks of bewilderment, I have over great amounts lost touch with people, And what is considered proper etiquette on how to interact with others. I just really don't like to be around people and to boot that it's normally awkward for others when I am.
    So, I've become mostly a reader than a poster these days.

    It does have its advantages, I mean it's not all bad about the internet, Worldwide communication as a technological feat, it's changed the world, in some ways for the better I suppose.
     
  10. coubob

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    I`m bi-polar.
     
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  11. Shadowprophet

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    How do you deal with it? For me, I've experienced it in front of so many people, Flipped out on so many people.
    Said so many things, Hurt so many peoples feelings.

    It's like a wall of deeds, and yeah, People tend to understand and be forgiving, But ultimately I have to ask myself, And Answer to myself, Why did I say that thing? Why did I do that thing? Why did I think that thing? And then, I berate myself for my lack of control. For me, I try to emulate this very stable person, But, I'm never that person for very long.

    it's very difficult.
     
  12. coubob

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    It`s hard. Smoking pot helps me, I tend to go up and down a whole lot throughout the day.The times i get really depressed is overwhelming and tend to only last for 12 hours at most, the same for my manic episodes as well. I often do things without thinking when in a mood, and instantly regret it, being an empath with bipolar ugh. i just ride the moment without trying to do wrong to myself or loved ones or get into trouble from it.and my self control is pretty good even in rough times anymore, but a few times has scared me getting a little berzerk unable to talk and well thats how i broke my first two knuckles on each hand, twice. anyhow i find myself restoring old bicycles to get away from things, my latest was a 1968 amg roadmaster 3 wheel with a 3 speed coaster brake, i only need a 24inch chrome front fender and cable. for it now. That ended and now im redoing my houses drywall and insulation and windows.but smoking weed helps me i just had some nice tasting stuff, thinking about getting the med marijuana card. but dont like the idea of being on a list.
    Here lately my sensory overload issue has been my real problem. I am borderline deaf already but noise seems likes its cranked up like a Iron Maiden concert. Not all the time mind ya. and when its my sniffer omg,
     

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