This is the social place Right? Well, I'm going to get social for a moment here. Here is the thing., I Spent most of my life abstaining from Alcohol, precisely the reason is. Circumstance. See. My uncle, Decades ago. had this accident, He was in a wreck, The guy next to him was a kind of tall man, So, When the car flipped. The man broke his neck see. And he died. So my uncle went to prison for like I don't know. Most of my childhood. My uncle finally got out of prison, but I will never forget. My grandfather, Fell on his knees in front of us, And he prayed for me and my brother., I will never forget, tears in his eyes. On his literal knees in front of us. I was four my brother was eleven. My grandpa prayed, That we would never drink, That drinking was the root of all sin and that God would spare us from such a fate as what my uncle was going through. So, For most of my life, I never drank, There are other reasons that I didn't drink. There was Bobbie jo, Now you guys wouldn't know about Bobbie jo. But look. Some people, They just have these things.. I can't explain it. I knew Bobbie jo since kindergarten, She always liked me, Her parents and my parents were friends, She would always Hug on me, all the time and the teachers and my parents always thought it was so cute. Well, Later in life we had relationships, And those never really last, No relationships ever truly last forever, because everything with a beginning, Well., It has an end, You know? But, Me and Bobbie jo., We stayed close our whole lives, We depended on each other, She, and I maintained sexual relationships pretty much, our entire lives, My first wife and her first husband, Well there was me and Bobbie jo, She would always find a reason to be in my life, And I would always find a reason to be in her's Weather we claimed to be friends from childhood or whatever, We found ways to always be together. one night, in my early twenties, I got really Drunk., I began doing what is colloquially called, a "Crying Drunk" See, I lost Two daughters, I don't want to talk about that,... it's something that always hurts and never goes away.. Time doesn't change when part of who you are is gone. But, one night, I got so drunk that I just began crying., You see. Some of you, Well you have children. I Had two kids. I lost them in a car accident, And I know, Everyone want's A Happy ending. Well, My first wife was an ignorant low IQ borderline slut. And she got in a car accident, Where my Daughters died. No, If you are wondering. I don't forgive her. I don't care that it was an accident. That was my daughters. Fuck her, forever. So Anyway one night, I got really drunk at a party., And I just lost it, I told my wife I wanted a Divorce, That she killed my Daughters, Because she was such a worthless piece of shit, And I wanted A divorce. and you know what? I know how hardcore I sound right now. I don't care, Hate me, Fuck that cunt, She killed my daughters. So, Bobbie joe begged me to never drink again. And So., for years, I never drank again. And do you know why? It was because I actually loved Bobbie joe... But, Life has a funny way of taking everything important away from you, you know? Bobbie Jo Five years ago today, Had a heart attack and suddenly died. Everything I have ever truly loved in this world has been taken away. Do you think that have not experienced loss or pain? I know what it's like to lose a part of yourself that you can never have back. I tell you this. People will Judge me, As an asshole, As a drunk, As a pothead. But, When I drink, I can actually get a good night's sleep. How much are a good nights sleep truly worth, To wake up in the morning feeling rested? You see, I have lost everything and I live only on promises I have made to people I loved. So, I've Failed, I've Failed At who I promised I could be. But people will read this, And they will see it as Sad. But This isn't sad. This is just Truth. These are things I have struggled against and overcome, I come to you, as a happy person who spreads love and joy as much as possible to others, not in spite of circumstances, But because I've learned how to overcome those stumbling blocks and become stronger. That's why this story ends on a high note. And that note is, This stuff here Can make good night's sleep happen. And I don't care about people's judgments, And the reason why is, No one has walked in my shoes. no one has had to find reasons to go on When there really isn't one. The things in this world, That I truly loved have already left this world because it wasn't good enough for them. A good night's sleep is a precious thing. A thing a lot of people take for granted.