I don't think it's just bipolar.

[Shadowprophet]

I know, people have this idea, What's wrong with shadow, He's crazy open and just talks about everything with no reserve which is off-putting to some people. My personality is different, Firstly, You know my net handle, Less of you know my actual name or where I live, I could be so Open, And still, no one really knows anything about Darren.

So I never understood why people tend to be blown away at how open I am, I could literally tell everyone everything about me and no one would know me any better than they do now, I'm just a name in a list of names. So, Yeah, It bothers people that I'm so open and tell every last little detail of my life like it just doesn't matter.
But I ask you? Does it matter? I mean really it doesn't. Even If I told you everything you still wouldn't really know this person. People weren't there when I experienced my up's or downs, people weren't there when my home burned down, People aren't there when I jog on the treadmill. the truth is, These are just shared words, and people don't truly really know anyone, really no matter what they say.

So, It blows my mind that some people believe I'm too open, In an environment where anonymity is completely guaranteed. So please, know that When I'm so open, I don't do it because I'm insane, I do it simply because I'm great at expressing myself and pretty good at communicating with others, and with full knowledge that anything I say Ultimately really doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things.

So please don't think I'm crazy, because I'm so open, I just realize how futile and fruitless small talk really truly is. Now, With that Said, I am Bipolar, But I don't believe that's the entirety of the issue. I think my nerves are really really bad. It's like a jittery and sometimes angry feeling, and I know it's all nerves, My problem is, I don't like it one bit, but Nerve medication is not an option, I will never take pills. I don't like pills.

Does anyone know of any way to alleviate nerve issues that are really so severe I should be seeking medical help? I just don't want pills or drugs. There has to be another way.

 

[Kchoo]

Dude... the right medication can help. See a psychiatrist.... tell him... be as open as you were here.. you sound like you want help, so try an trust the good doctor... make sure you have some proper support to watch the symptoms and signs, give it an honest, fair try.

 

[Shadowprophet]

Dude... the right medication can help. See a psychiatrist.... tell him... be as open as you were here.. you sound like you want help, so try an trust the good doctor... make sure you have some proper support to watch the symptoms and signs, give it an honest, fair try.

I've tried that before, they all want to prescribe me medications, But truthfully. It may be time for medications.

 

[Kchoo]

I've tried that before, they all want to prescribe me medications, But truthfully. It may be time for medications.

Tell all your lifestyle habits etc... the more he/she knows the better. The Doc may not prescribe anything, and if he/she does, it is more likely to help than not. Just trust them as if your life depends on it for three to six months. See what happens. Sometimes you may need a psychologust as well, to monitor your behaviors, skills, changes in cognitive function... for a while... and that is advisable to have a pair of doctors that keep each other in the loop. In fact, start with a psychologist and have them recommend a psychiatrist if they advise it.

 

[Kchoo]

—-> psychologist —-> wellness —-> psychiatry —-> wellness —> psychologist ——> wellness

 

[Kchoo]

Tmorrow you may think you don’t need it... but go anyway...

 

[Shadowprophet]

I've got to do something, But I don't want to have to take nerve medication, I'm open to something like maybe antidepressants, But No nerve meds. They have had me on those before, I just don't like them.

 

[Kchoo]

I've got to do something, But I don't want to have to take nerve medication, I'm open to something like maybe antidepressants, But No nerve meds. They have had me on those before, I just don't like them.

Tell them all that... it’s cool bro... the big mistake was giving up on the doctors... you must work with them to find what works for you.

Some mild anxiety medicine may be all you need. If you feel lost, the meds may be too powerful. Work with them to get it right.

 

[Kchoo]

I thought I needed anxiety meds... turns out it was nothing more than a blood pressure issue, and that medicine made all the difference. Hehe.

 

[Kchoo]

I've got to do something, But I don't want to have to take nerve medication, I'm open to something like maybe antidepressants, But No nerve meds. They have had me on those before, I just don't like them.

thought I needed anxiety meds... turns out it was nothing more than a blood pressure issue, and that medicine made all the difference. Hehe.

So ya never know...

 

[coubob]

A neurologist might be better. I`m bi-polar. I also have epilepsy,ptsd, sensory overload & tremors. and been on depakote for all of it. My last grand-mall seizure was in 91.but the rest remains a real bitch at times. My neurologist is the one that asked me if i had any missing time events when diagnosing my epilepsy. He did a post hypnotic regression on me and thats when i found out i had been abducted during the missing 4 hours.

 

[Shadowprophet]

A neurologist might be better. I`m bi-polar. I also have epilepsy,ptsd, sensory overload & tremors. and been on depakote for all of it. My last grand-mall seizure was in 91.but the rest remains a real bitch at times. My neurologist is the one that asked me if i had any missing time events when diagnosing my epilepsy. He did a post hypnotic regression on me and thats when i found out i had been abducted during the missing 4 hours.

Thank you for this, I have wondered if I was epileptic, My personality changes a lot, I mean it's back and forth, I've often wondered if this was some form of epilepsy, You have given me an alternate path to consider, I honestly do believe that whatever is going on in my head, could be some form of mild seizure.

I don't know if mine are tremors but that's only because I haven't been diagnosed, I do shake a lot sometimes, I thought it was just nerves but I feel bad when I do, also my muscles do just sometimes have like, these umm, it's hard to explain, but they just contract and shake on their own at random sometimes. sometimes it's my hand other times it's my calf muscle, it can be anywhere really.

I'm going to talk this over with my doctor and see what he thinks.

I had never considered this path before And I think you may be on to something brother.

 

[Shadowprophet]

thought I needed anxiety meds... turns out it was nothing more than a blood pressure issue, and that medicine made all the difference. Hehe.

So ya never know...

Don't worry brother, I promise, I will get this checked out, I've been talking about it for so long, and I know I've made it other peoples problems, but, It really is time I took action and at least got something done about this. Thank you for being there brother You have my word, I will get this checked out, if for no other reason than, I know what kind of person I am, And I'm not an angry butthole, and it's unfair that I wake up some days as that person. I want to do something about it.

 

[coubob]

Thank you for this, I have wondered if I was epileptic, My personality changes a lot, I mean it's back and forth, I've often wondered if this was some form of epilepsy, You have given me an alternate path to consider, I honestly do believe that whatever is going on in my head, could be some form of mild seizure.

I don't know if mine are tremors but that's only because I haven't been diagnosed, I do shake a lot sometimes, I thought it was just nerves but I feel bad when I do, also my muscles do just sometimes have like, these umm, it's hard to explain, but they just contract and shake on their own at random sometimes. sometimes it's my hand other times it's my calf muscle, it can be anywhere really.

I'm going to talk this over with my doctor and see what he thinks.

I had never considered this path before And I think you may be on to something brother.

I was told my alpha brain waves are overactive and the extra electrical charges has to go someplace & is what causes my issues.

 

[Kchoo]

Don't worry brother, I promise, I will get this checked out, I've been talking about it for so long, and I know I've made it other peoples problems, but, It really is time I took action and at least got something done about this. Thank you for being there brother You have my word, I will get this checked out, if for no other reason than, I know what kind of person I am, And I'm not an angry butthole, and it's unfair that I wake up some days as that person. I want to do something about it.

So... ??? Make the appointment yet???

Or... was this just a passing moment never to be again?

 

[Shadowprophet]

So... ??? Make the appointment yet???

I've seen My family doctor, Doctor Tony, He wants me to go to a place called life skills, <-- that's what they call the place you go down here when you need a shrink. I have an appointment set up for April 8th, But These kinds of things always take time, I've been before, I'll have to go repeatedly for months and let the counselor " open up a case" it takes forever.

You know there are simpler solutions, If I just dropped offline. I've considered that I mean, I've given up youtube, I've given up twitter, It wouldn't be that difficult to just not bother people while I'm having an episode if I wasn't online.

But that's not really a solution, It won't really fix the problem. Maybe just the counseling will help, It's been my experience that very often it helps much more than people give it credit for.

I just know my ground rules are simple. I'd rather die than have to take some sort of medication that robs me of my intelligence. I simply won't do that, I'll go to counseling. I will play nice. But No, I'd seriously rather just expire than be a slave to some medication.

I'm working on the problem, And I will see the counselor I promise brother. But I won't take their medicines. Think about it. I have a simple choice to make, It bothers me when I'm an asshole to people, That's the real problem, The world is full of assholes though. I simply won't mentally castrate myself to please others, It's unfair and unjust to me.
If the counseling doesn't help, Then I'm just stuck as a man who will on some occasions be an asshole.

It's a better alternative than Things like Lithium or Xanax.. I mean seriously, You are a real friend Kchoo. Would you rather take pills that rob you of your intellect to make others happy, Or would you suffer just being a dick first before taking pills that sedate you and make you dull?

 

[Kchoo]

I've seen My family doctor, Doctor Tony, He wants me to go to a place called life skills, <-- that's what they call the place you go down here when you need a shrink. I have an appointment set up for April 8th, But These kinds of things always take time, I've been before, I'll have to go repeatedly for months and let the counselor " open up a case" it takes forever.

You know there are simpler solutions, If I just dropped offline. I've considered that I mean, I've given up youtube, I've given up twitter, It wouldn't be that difficult to just not bother people while I'm having an episode if I wasn't online.

But that's not really a solution, It won't really fix the problem. Maybe just the counseling will help, It's been my experience that very often it helps much more than people give it credit for.

I just know my ground rules are simple. I'd rather die than have to take some sort of medication that robs me of my intelligence. I simply won't do that, I'll go to counseling. I will play nice. But No, I'd seriously rather just expire than be a slave to some medication.

I'm working on the problem, And I will see the counselor I promise brother. But I won't take their medicines. Think about it. I have a simple choice to make, It bothers me when I'm an asshole to people, That's the real problem, The world is full of assholes though. I simply won't mentally castrate myself to please others, It's unfair and unjust to me.
If the counseling doesn't help, Then I'm just stuck as a man who will on some occasions be an asshole.

It's a better alternative than Things like Lithium or Xanax.. I mean seriously, You are a real friend Kchoo. Would you rather take pills that rob you of your intellect to make others happy, Or would you suffer just being a dick first before taking pills that sedate you and make you dull?

I am not pushing pills dude, just hoping that you get the tools you feel you need.

(FLIPPY'S FRIEND)

 

[Shadowprophet]

I am not pushing pills dude, just hoping that you get the tools you feel you need.

(FLIPPY'S FRIEND)

Oh I know you're not brother, That's not what I mean, That whole pill thing comes from a fear I have going way back.

When I was 13, I had just found out how bad my heart condition was, At that time in my life, I wasn't equipped to process it all, and I would freak out, Thinking I was going to die every day, having panic attacks so severe I would pass out.

They put me on Lithium, Xanax, Prozac, and Buspar at once, It really affected me, It made me an angry person ready to physically fight people I felt invincible yet Still nervous and panicky, My fear of pills is from experience, All they really do is make me more tolerable to others. If that can even be said.

 

[Shadowprophet]

I was talking to Tate once about my mental stuff. Tate keeps asking me what the root of the issue is. He seems to think that deep in my mind something is bothering me and that's what causes the episodes.

My thing is, I mean, I deal with a lot of stress sometimes, But I mean people have seen it, It takes nothing for it to happen, and a lot of times, I have no idea why I'm angry, It's like a switch that just flips off and on at random. I am curious though. Could there be some sort of root issue, Some unresolved thing that I can't even remember or don't even know about causing these things to happen?

My thing is, I think it's literally brain chemistry, and nothing sets it off. But, I wonder if it's possible there is a psychologically solvable solution to this as Tate suggests.

 

[Kchoo]

I was talking to Tate once about my mental stuff. Tate keeps asking me what the root of the issue is. He seems to think that deep in my mind something is bothering me and that's what causes the episodes.

My thing is, I mean, I deal with a lot of stress sometimes, But I mean people have seen it, It takes nothing for it to happen, and a lot of times, I have no idea why I'm angry, It's like a switch that just flips off and on at random. I am curious though. Could there be some sort of root issue, Some unresolved thing that I can't even remember or don't even know about causing these things to happen?

My thing is, I think it's literally brain chemistry, and nothing sets it off. But, I wonder if it's possible there is a psychologically solvable solution to this as Tate suggests.

Oh I don't know about a root cause, or switches, but I do believe there are ways to embrace yourself and maybe learn to be the Hulk, and David Banner as a tag team.