Don't worry, While how I was feeling isn't an overall feeling that I'm used too. It does have all the signs that it's connected to me being bipolar. Even now, After some sleep, I already feel a lot better. My worry is, The bipolar issue is getting worse. I used to be something I could struggle with and even though I couldn't outright overcome it, I could Pretend and Act and make myself act normally. Even if I didn't feel normal, This one though. It was nearly beyond my control completely, even realizing it was an episode, I was unable to really control it. I think I need to see the doctor and get back on my medications. But I will be fine. My true biggest struggle is, I don't want to have to rely on medications. But, It seems like I may have too.